Whispers and Silent Motion (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian)

Chapter 18

She took a deep breath, "what do you mean, Val?"

"I mean... Why is it that too extraordinarily lonely people wind up as friends like us?" She looked as if she were struggling with herself, and unbeknownst to Toni, she was. Their familiar silence cut through the car as Valeriya gently ran her fingers over the other's, massaging them as she waited for an answer. Toni only watched in response, leaning her head on the head rest of her seat. This was one very seldom time that she didn't know what to say, or rather, how to say it.

"I think that God, if he's even real, puts people together like us because for some reason they need eachother..." She started in a gentle, but shaky voice. "And I think that you and I need each other, whether we admit it or not. I need you, and you need me."

"I don't know if I believe that." Valeriya shook her head, pulling her hands away from Toni's, who was admittedly taken aback by what she said.

"You don't know if...?" She trailed off, furrowing her brows. She looked hurt over the comment.

"What do you mean you don't believe it?" She fought herself from getting angry now. Her normal reaction to feeling hurt.
Valeriya held up her hand, signalling Toni to calm down. "What I mean is... You don't need me, but at this point, I couldn't do without you..."

The boiling in her blood calmed down as Toni's eyes fell a little, feeling ridiculous that she got angry over what she should've known the other was going to say. "I do need you, but for different reasons than I originally set out for."

"Now it's my turn to ask what you mean." Valeriya straightened in her seat, bringing her hands together in her lap. Her green eyes locked on Toni's cool form.

"When I first asked you to mentor under me it was because I wanted you to take my place. I uh..." She looked away at that point, bringing her covered hands up to grip the steering wheel.

"You what?" The younger woman inquired, quirking an eyebrow. Her tone became more serious, verging on possible anger, but Toni hoped that wasn't the case. It seemed that tonight's exchange would either end up with both of them on bad terms for the night, or closer than they were before.

"When I told you I would train you... I did it under the personal terms that you would take my place in the organization I was working for, so that I could leave it. But now... Now, I don't want either of us there. I need you to be with me, and work with me, so that we can figure out who's trying to get me. No matter how dangerous it is, but I feel like that's asking too much of you already.

"I just need to know that you won't go anywhere once we reach the states..." Toni said in a defeated tone, leaning her head forward now to rest on the steering wheel.
Valeriya let out a breath she had been holding in case of having to defend herself for one reason or another, but she now realized she didn't have have to. This woman in front of her was scared, the Toni she spent so much time with and became close to was scared. And it wasn't a fear pertaining only to herself, it was a fear of being without Valeriya.

"You're afraid to lose me...?" She shuddered, failing at the attempt she was making to hide the relief and oncoming sob she felt.

"Of course I am. I thought I made that clear when I told you I was afraid of hurting you." Toni teased, giving a soft smile. "I want to keep you safe, Valeriya, but only if you'll let me."

The sob that she was trying to hold back broke free like a cracked dam. Valeriya smiled through her tears, fervently trying to wipe them away.

"I don't know what to say..." She laughed softly to herself.

"You don't have to say anything." Toni reassured with a smile.

And so, she didn't say anything. Although, she did catch both herself and Toni off gaurd when she all but threw herself at the other, taking her into a tight hug; not stopping to think of how forthright her actions could be perceived, but Toni didn't mind at all. She eagery embraced Valeriya, pressing her forehead against the woman's shoulder.

"You're barely warm." Valeriya noted in a whisper, feeling how cool Toni had become in her hold. Did this mean that she fully trusted her? The thought made her heartbeat run faster.

"I'm almost sure it's because of you." Toni smiled, lifting her head and pulling herself back into her seat.

Valeriya smiled in return and laid her seat back, getting comfortable for the night.

"I think perhaps we should rest now, Antonia." She said in a chuckle, to which Toni agreed to, laying her seat back as well.

She watched over Valeriya for several minutes, thinking to herself how she wanted nothing more than to kiss her in this moment.

The way she looked so peaceful while she slept, how her hair laid loosely over her shoulders, the way her lips were slightly parted...

Before Toni could reason with herself, she leaned over her sleeping counterpart and closed her lips over the other's in a gentle press. She was as soft as she had imagined...

Toni shut her eyes and stayed in place a moment longer, taking in Valeriya's taste and the feel of her lips. Although, what she didn't expect when she pulled away was the other looking back at her with a lidded gaze.

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