Best friend or more?

~chapter 32~ do i need him?

Dixie pov:
I wake up at 11am feeling like shit I've never felt more down in my life with my mascara running down my face I go downstairs "hey dix how you feeling" "like shit" "it'll get better I promise " "I hope so" I head back upstairs and I walk into my rest room and run the shower having no energy for any of this I still did it I got in the shower and I leaned against the wall rubbing the shampoo and conditioner in my hair, I wash it out and get out I wrap my self in a towel and brush my teeth and do my face routine I then get some sweats and hoodie and go downstairs "where you going dix" "On a drive" "be careful" "I will" I get in my car and drive to the spot me and noah always used to go to he did text me saying that he was coming back but I ignored him I know if I text him more I'll get attached and he hurt me so much to just forgive him as I'm driving there I turn back I didn't want to remember Noah even though he did everything for me, it just breaks my heart that he did that to me, I follow a long road blasting music singing my heart out

Noah pov:
It's time for me to go back to la but me and Dixie share a room I know it would be very awkward if I just turned up "Dixie I just wanted to let you know we are all coming back to la I just didn't want to make it awkward when I turned up out of the blue" Bryce is driving us to the airport "cmon cheer up Noah" "I can't I just feel so low but I caused this I brought this up on my self but I regretted it since the first second It happened to the last" "you should talk to her when we get there"
"I don't want to make it awkward though" "it won't be awkward she misses you so much i know it" "yeah..." we arrive at the airport and as soon as we enter our flight is called we rush and just board it

~time skip~

We have just arrived at the house I was nervous to walk in as she probably doesn't want to see me right now we walk in and Addi and Bryce go into a room to talk things out I wanted to put things right with Dixie but I don't know if she wants the same but I noticed her car wasn't on the drive way which confused me I go up to our room when I walk in I see a picture of us smashed on the floor and the other 2 facing down I didn't know what I was thinking to hurt the girl of my dream my best friend and to cause her so much pain i decided to text her "Dixie can we talk... where are you" she replied right away "why do you care" "because I do Dixie" "if you cared why did you do it" "it was a mistake and a mistake I've learnt from and I've hurt you which kills me to know I've caused you all this pain I'm so sorry Dixie" "i don't know..." "Dixie where are you" "on some hill" "cmon Dixie don't lie all I want to do it work things out with you because I still love you i was drunk and you know that" "but being drunk isn't an excuse Noah" "I know Dixie please come home I just want to talk it out face to face" "fine I'll be home in 5"

Dixie pov:
Fuck. I can't stay away from him I know I still love him I always will he's been here from the day I was born and I don't want to throw this all away, it's been a hard week without Noah and I'd love for us to make up but he's hurt me to much to just forgive him though I miss him and his touch... I pull into the drive way I take a deep breath and get out I walk in as soon as I see Noah on the couch fiddling with his fingers he does that when he's nervous but I couldn't help but break down I feel my legs go weak and I fall to Floor feeling dizzy "Dixie" I hear as Noah runs over to me "please I'm fine" I lie I just didn't want to be next to him right now he backs up "should I get Bryce or Addi" "no" I say wiping my tears I slowly stand up I look at him in the eyes once more before running upstairs to our room I slam the door and sit in front of it crying in my knees "Dixie I don't know what I've done I messed up real bad and I don't know how Many times I can apologise or show you how much I love you I'm sorry and I'll never do this again I still love you Dixie..." "You h-hurt me Noah so much when I saw you that night it was the feeling of emptiness I felt so worthless watching you make out with that girl it made me feel like I wasn't good enough for you, to even be here but I missed you more than I thought I would and it hurts me to see you after a week of this all happening" "I was drunk which of course Is no excuse but please let me explain" "go ahead" "this is what really happened"

~flashback~

Noah pov:
We were playing truth or dare I didn't like these types of games but Blake begged me to play so i did I get another bottle of beer and took a seat "look Blake I really don't want to play" "cmon dude just one go" i look back and the bottle landed on me "Truth or dare Noah" "tru-" "cmon chose dare" "dare" "I dare you to kiss her" "I can't do that" I stand up and head upstairs the girl follows me "why didn't you kiss me" "I have a girlfriend" "it's only a dare" "I said no" she then puts her hand on my cheek "just imagine I'm Dixie" "but your not" she kisses me and I kiss back being stupid and drunk I wasn't thinking straight and that's when Dixie walked in we weren't making out we pecked once I was taking my shirt of and the girl was getting out of my bed but Dixie took it the wrong way

~end of flashback~

"It looked like more than a peck noah" "I promise Dixie it wasn't that's what really happened I'm telling the truth" was he telling the truth? Did I want him back? Do I need him? I was asking my self the same three questions over and over again I love him I do but what if he's not telling the truth and this is just to get me back and do it again I stand up and open the door the tears still coming he stands and looks at me "I swear I'm not lying" I throw my self at him he sat down and placed me on his lap, I got this warm feeling I've got the love of my life back I cried in his chest for hours as he held me close I didn't know why I was crying I was just overwhelmed I should've just let him explain him self and I wouldn't of got in this situation "Dixie can we try this again and forgot this ever happened you are the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on I promise to never do this again I promise to take you everywhere with me When ever I go on a business trip Dixie will you be my girlfriend again..." "yes I will" i felt so happy but tired at the same time this was the best but worst day of my life but I've got my baby back and that's all I care about

Noah pov:
I've got the love of my life back my world my everything and I'm so thankful for her, and especially for this second chance i carry her into bed and lay next to her she puts her head on my chest "I've missed you" "I've missed you more baby" she smuggles up in my chest and falls asleep I kiss her head "I promise I'll never do anything like that again I can't wait for our future together good night bubs I love you" I kiss her head once more before laying down and slowly falling asleep with Dixie In my Arms once again

Word count: 1525

I'm sorry the break up was short but i couldn't last any longer doing it, it was breaking my heart let's be honest... anyway I'm back I was very stressed last week but I'm feeling better then ever now <3