Save Me (XXXTENTACION Love Story)

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"Damn, I felt like a celebrity"Ayleks chuckled

Just then I felt Jahseh let go of my hand. I looked at him and he was on his phone.

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We all went to restaurant Billie suggested. As we headed inside I grabbed Jahseh's arm, holding him back so we can talk in private.

"Hey, why you so quiet baby?"I asked

Jahseh stared at me and shook his head "I saw it Liah"

"Saw what?"I asked

"The way you look at him when he was talking to you, like you believe every word that came out his mouth, like you still loved him"Jahseh said

"That's not true"

"It's okay tho, he was your first love right?"Jahseh said before heading in the restaurant

I don't love nor care about Kentrell, but I did believe what he said...why? because I know him..I know when he's lying and I know when he's telling the truth...it's very rare when he tells the truth. Here's the thing people don't get about drug addicts mixed with mental problems...they can be a total different person if they aren't treated and the Kentrell I saw in the court room today was the Kentrell I remember when we were 14, two young kids who knew nothing about love because it was never given to them, found love in a hopeless place.

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Once we made it back home Jahseh was still quiet.

"Enough of this Jahseh, you know I don't love Kentrell"I said as he passed by me to put his jacket in the closet.

"Jahseh, I really don't need you being mad at me...not right now"

He walked out of the closet and looked at me. "I'm not mad, I'm just thinking...about how you could still feel something for him after everything he's done to you, and to us"he sat on the bed, turning on his PS5

"I don't feel anything for him...I was just listening to what what he had to say!"At this point I was getting annoyed

"Then what was it? because I know it was something"Jahseh said as he grabbed the controller

"I...believed that he's gonna change"I admitted

Jahseh turned around and looked at me. "You joking right? please tell me your fucking joking Liah"

"Jahseh, I know him and trust me I know when he's lying and he wasn't lying, I believe he's gonna become a better person"

"He almost killed our daughter and possibly you, he fucking stabbed me multiple times.."

Jahseh threw the controller on the bed and took off his shirt "look at all the wounds I got, I almost fucking died"

I looked at all the scars on his stomach "Baby I-"

"After he stabbed me he said 'Liah is...and will always be mine' those words played over and over while he was talking to you in court today"He said

"I'm just saying he's on medication, he's gonna be in prison for a long time and during that tell his mental health will get better-"

"Or worst, Liah I've been to JAIL and I almost went crazy...so just imagine being in PRISON for 15 years? and that medication? he might be on it for now but...I'd give it a few months before he pretends he's swallowing them then throwing them away"Jahseh sat back down the bed and put his head down

"Kentrell put us through hell but he's in prison and he's gonna be there for a long time..I don't want him to cause problems in our relationship no more, let's just-"