Trusting The Trouble➳ Scott McCall {3}

Ordinary Truck

"Is that all you wanted to say?" I asked him acting totally calm even though I was thinking 20 different things.

"No. I'm sorry for sleeping with you when you were vinderable. I'm sorry for ever hurting you and also im sorry for hurting your dad. That was uncalled for."

He paused for a moment to look at me reading my reaction and I kept my face straight. "At the start I thought earning your trust would be easy. And then I ended up actually liking you. Look I would never let Tracy or anyone hurt you. No matter what."

We managed to pull up in my driveway on that note and I didn't know what to say. God you can't just drop a bomb in me like that. Theo Raken your an idiot. You can't just- what did I just listen to- god I can't even think-

"I'll be a minuite or two." Was the only thing I could say as I opened the car up and I ran out u locking my door and I quickly headed up to my room which hadn't been clean in days.

I put on some more suitable attire. I had leggings on thank god. Easy to fight in and comfortable. I grabbed a black top fitting it over my head and I looked at my self in the mirror.

I had this awful habit called body checking. I would just lift up my shirt and wrap my arms around my body because I felt like crap. Under all this confidence I'm shattered. I have so many things running through my mind and I don't know how long I can keep up the confidence act. I feel like I'm going to crack any second.

I wore a bunch of other layers and I ran to the bathroom ficking my hair up and brushed my teeth. Fuck I looked like shit. My hair was thinning, my face was pale. Everything was wrong.

I could feel the liquid rush to my eyes but I forced them back down as good as I could as I grabbed a jacket and I ran downstairs.

I was ready to head out until Theo blocked the door way as he stood there staring at me. He didn't have a stupid grin or an angry look on his face he just looked at me full of sentiment.

"I wanna ask you something." He then shut the door and he slowly walked up to me. "Answer honestly." He told me and I didn't object to anything.

"Are you okay?" Theo asked me and I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"No." I shook my head and the fluid rushed back to my eyes and I silently looked towards him letting the tears fall.

He walked over to me and I didn't expect him to do it. But he placed his arms around me into a hug. Not so long ago I wanted to kill him. But now I'm accepting a hug from him.

"I can't do it anymore." I mumbled silently crying and he didn't try to say anything he just listened. "I'm tired Theo. I'm so tired."

We stayed like this for another ten minutes. "You know I hate hugging people." I told him and he seemed suprised by that.

"You hug Scott all the time." Theo brought up. "I hug him because he makes me feel safe. He's the first person I hugged in a while. I hate the idea of hugging unless it's with my boyfriend." Damn that reminds me I only ever hugged stiles once in a while. And I only hugged three other people. Lydia doesn't count she's a fucking goddess.

"Why?" Theo asked me and he seemed genuinely interested. "No reason." There was a reason. I remember hugging my mom and Ali and Aiden for the last time. What if the last hug I give everyone is going to be my last one with them. I can't risk that.

My thinking led to another five minuites of hugging and then he finally let go of me and I quickly wiped the tears of my face.

He placed his hand on my cheek and he took his chance to kiss me and I completely pushed him of without even thinking.