the sun was completely set, the night was dying down, everyone was gathered around the fire place talking amongst themselves. but namjoon had a hard time focusing on anything anyone was telling him. jimin, who had one too many eggnogs, thought it was a good idea to curl up in namjoon's lap. although jimin wasn't completely wasted out of his mind, he still wasn't completely there to realize how tense namjoon was when he had crawled into the elder's lap.
the whole room noticed it though yet did nothing it about. they all, especially hoseok, were tired of seeing namjoon pine over the boy and jimin not noticing it. christmas was the best time to confess feelings, and namjoon did promise hoseok that he'd confess before the end of the year so it was either now or never.
"what time is it?" seokjin said through a yawn. hoseok picked up his phone and checked the time. "10:30, i think i'll go ahead and head to bed." hoseok said while standing up, rocking a bit from his legs that were sleep from sitting on them. seokjin nodded and followed behind hoseok to their shared room in the house.
namjoon felt his heart drop down to his ass hole, he knew exactly what they were doing. trying to leave one by one so both him and jimin would be alone. they were so fucked up for this, the only thing he could do was hope that jimin would follow yoongi back to their shared room. but nope, all the boy did was snuggle more into namjoon's chest.
in the span of 15 minutes everyone had then left and namjoon didn't think jimin noticed at all. the boy was so occupied with a piece of string that was hanging off namjoon's shirt to notice.
"here jiminie, drink this." namjoon said while pushing a large cup of water into jimin's hands to help wash down the eggnog. the boy gratefully took the water and sipped on it. namjoon couldn't help but stare at the younger in awe. from the messily thrown on reindeer headband to the ugly christmas sweater, he looked perfect.
namjoon, unknowingly, tightened his grip around the boy not wanting jimin to get up and leave him. even though he was quite nervous to be left alone with his long time crush, he still wouldn't be happy if the younger left him to go to bed.
"you're really warm joon." jimin said while placing his hand over namjoon's head. "now you're turning red, do you want to step outside for a minute" jimin asked, not noticing the real reasoning behind the older man turning red. namjoon nodded a bit and stood up with jimin still in his arms.
they walked through the sliding door and was immediately hit with harsh coldness of winter. the wind blew, shaking the trees that surrounded them. it was freezing outside, yet both men felt warm wrapped in each other's arms. jimin had stole a spot in front of namjoon and practically forced namjoon to wrap his arms around his waist.
"you're like a big teddy bear. so warm." jimin said while melting into namjoon's touch. namjoon couldn't stop himself from blushing. he knew that jimin was an affectionate person and if it was anyone else outside with him he'd probably do the same thing. but a small part of him wanted to believe that jimin only thinks of him as a warm teddy bear. that he'd only crawl to namjoon for warmth and comfort.
the two stayed quiet, just enjoying each other's presence and the beautiful stars that shined brightly down on them. namjoon did notice how jimin kept shuffling under him, moving and murmuring things that namjoon couldn't make out.
"jiminie, are you okay?" namjoon asked while looking down at the boy. jimin looked up and nodded softly. jimin just wanted to come clean, his heart was racing every time he got any where near namjoon. he just wanted to come clean, even if namjoon didn't like him back, at least the older knew where he stood in their relationship.
he took a deep breath while turning to face namjoon. namjoon's hands were still holding on to jimin's waist and jimin looked up at the taller male with hopeful eyes. namjoon was confused and scared from the close proximity.
"namjoon i have something to tell you, and please don't let anything in our relationship change after i tell you." jimin said, looking the older in his eyes. namjoon tilted his head in confusion and fear.
"namjoon, i love you. i've loved you for a long time but i never knew how to tell you. all these years we've been friends i just couldn't help but fall for you." jimin said looking down at the frozen grass. namjoon was shocked. he thought he'd be the one telling jimin that he loved him tonight but instead it was jimin coming clean to him.
all these years, they've been pining after each other not thinking that the other likes them back. all these years, namjoon could have been held jimin in his arms at night but instead he didn't because he was too afraid to tell the truth.
"please say something namjoon." jimin pleaded, tears brimming his eyes. he was afraid that he was going to be rejected. that namjoon was disgusted in him because he was in love with him.
instead of forming words, namjoon kisses him. a deep, passionate, love filled kiss. jimin was shocked at first but melted into the kiss like a piece of chocolate in someone's warm hands. neither one of them wanted to pull away but little cold soft droplets fell over them making them both pull away from each other.
snow was falling, decorating the once green grass green white. the snow was falling quick and it was getting colder by the second yet neither one of them left the warmth of each other. they just stood happily with one another not exchanging any words. just happy, content, and with each other.
merry christmas
