Until the end

Burn'nt out

Today was my last day of college.I finally got my first year of Oxford university delt with, and yes I go to Oxford when I got the news I'm going to Oxford I was thrilled! But now after one year it doesn't seem so fun.. I have been working my ass off for the past year try to be on schedule taking nearly 5 courses, I even had to drop one of my courses cause it was too much stress.So finally vacation seems so nice to think about but I still have so much to do..

My best friend, My partner in crime , the one and only.. Yelena!!! Yelena is my best friend we were friends since secondary school she told me not to worry about my class's saying just to have fun for the summer in London ,I said to her "how the hell am I going to have fun in London?! It only rains there"
"Don't you like rain though?"she said confused
"Of course I like rain ,it's just it's not as nice rain in London, Imagine rain in Edinburgh.. OK now imagine rain in London" I said
"It's just depressing" I added
"Well kinda like you" Yelena snarked
"Haha very funny, well at least you didn't call me an emo for once which is a plus" I said
"Emo" she said that and ran off. She was a weird one but that's what makes her special to me. But a weird trait she has she randomly runs off to places once we were in a theatre watching Hamilton and she just ran off saying she had to walk her dog, which doesn't make sense cause she doesn't have one well I didn't think of it much because that happened before my birthday so I thought maybe she needed to do something before my birthday party but now that I think about it..
Yelena is great at making excuses if she doesn't have a assignment on time she'll make up an excuse so good the teachers would give her an A on her assignment just for that excuse. And now that I think about it more and more she always has this weir dish look on her face before she runs off it's like a routine she looks at her watch looks up side to side with a annoyed and worried face put together. It's like when your mother calls you down for the third time in 10 minutes it's eighter something really stupid or your in deep trouble. I should stop looking too into it. I've been watching too many murder mystery movies.

1 week of holidays

I ignored what Yelena said about relaxing and not caring about the stuff I still need to do for school. But thank god I didn't listen to her because I got all my work done after 3 all nighters 50 litres of triple espresso's and red bull I got all my assignments done all my errands all my house work and so on but now after all of that I dropped down on my king sized bed for only me and starred at the ceiling for at least 2 hours before passing out.

I woke up at 4:46 am to find myself  drenched in sweat I picked up my phone went into notes and wrote down..

"Note to self do not drink large amounts of red bull and expresso's"
I tried to get up but I fell down I grabbed the corner of my bed and steadily got up I grabbed some clean clothes and clean sheets off my chair and quickly changed into a band shirt and sweatpants that I'm pretty sure I put on backwards, then I changed the sheets i felt sick so I ran to my bathroom thank god I was ok. I took a cold water bottle from my fridge and sat on my chair and i spinned around slowly for a moment scanning the room for something to do nothing I suddenly stopped spinning and I turned over to my desk filled with papers and books I looked through them

"Philosophy 101"
"The study of biology"
"Biology assignment May 2022"
"Murder on the orient express"
Hey I've been looking for that "murder or the orien.. express.." I muttered I need to give that back to the library
I orginize my paper and then spreading myself out on the desk.
Something catches my eye, MY SKETCH BOOK I flick through the pages examining the sketches of eyes, mouths, failed attempts with hands, more eyes , some noses and a few outfit designs.
I take a sip of my water while turning on my computer, I get a text from Yelena of course she is texting me at this time..

"HEY!!!" Yelena texted
"Do you realise what time it is??" I responded
"Yea but do you, your never up at this time I didn't even think you would respond"she added
"Alright I'll talk to you tomorrow evening ok Yelena" I sighed
"OK Zero gn!!" She finished
"Gn" I texted back
My computer turned on I was so bored that I did what a bored person would do.. search up what should I do when I'm bored on Google
1,652,002,729 searches comes up
I click on something I scroll down reading some boring stuff like water your plants make plans with friends etc etc
But what can I do at 5:03 am.. I scrolled some more until I found FIND A HOBBY
There's an app called find a hobby?? Honestly I'm not surprised I mean I have a hobby a hobby that I haven't done in ages which is art.. maybe I should start art again but then my college brain started to freak out at the thought of the cost for  art equipment . Ok maybe not that so I had nothing else in mind .

I clicked on the website
It was loading.. Ah there it is so many hobby's
I was scrolling until I found something interesting...