history is repeating itself. she's sort-of always been the outcast. the more she thinks about it, the worse she thinks about herself. it hurts. why is she always hurt?
when she was in junior school she realised she was just never as good as the next person. she tried not to compare herself to stop herself from feeling like a failure at such a young age.
she feels as though being left out by your own family is so much more worse than by your friends or anybody passing by. that shit hits different. it used to happen whenever her older sibling left to go somewhere with whoever it is in the family. they'd come back and what she got wouldn't amount to what her sibling visibly had. she'd feel so hurt but would never say a thing.
and then they'd ask her, "what's wrong with you?" while looking at her like she grew another pair of eyes.
"nothing," she'd reply. even a blind man could here her voice thick with self pity.
she was just annoyed that they had to ask what was wrong with her. it was pretty obvious. her non-confrontational nature only made it worse. she's be so damn near to tears when they continued with life, mocking her like some twitter joke.
well. history is repeating itself. it happened again today with her younger cousin this time around. of course she threw hints to show her dismay but they only fell onto blind eyes and deaf ears. sad as fuck if you ask me. it's okay though...
ain't nothing much to it.
*heartbreak emoji*
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