Ballad of an over thinker

Internal Panic

I'm in a state of internal panic

I don't know what to do

He promises he's a good one

But so have the rest

The first few months only bring promises of heaven

But their always interrupted with a break in the lies

There's always a switch

And honestly

I think that seeing the switch is more painful than the things that happen after

At this point I can take the pain

And the humiliation

Nothing is worse than the overwhelming thought that I let this happen

It's my fault once again

Why did I trust them

I knew it would happen

It always happens

So why did I continue to give in

And I hope you aren't the same

But I can't sleep a night without seeing his face

And not the face of the boy I fell in love with

But the face of the monster he hid under his mask

And it's sad but it's true that all I can think about is when that will happen with you