I
Am so scared of you
Not that you are going to hurt me
But that you're going to be too good to me
I don't know how to deal with that
And it scares me
I am horrified when you look at me and smile
Hold me and laugh and your eyes shine
It's not you that scares me
But the thoughts that come through my head
When you make me happy
I'm constantly pushing away thoughts of pushing you away
Constantly in a battle with my brain that for once
Someone
Might actually want more than to break me
I don't know how to act
And it scares me
I don't want to break you
Because I feel like I'm too broken to love
How could you want me
Surely there's something else
Something I can't yet see
But I can't even begin to explain how bad this is scaring me
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Ballad of an over thinker
PoetryHealing from bad relationships in the form of words. Some might be personal but hopefully this can help someone.