Hey MEMO!

W.

"Hurting back the people who hurt you, makes you become just like them. Revenge only gets you even with your enemy. Forgiveness puts you above them."

~ Get even with. ~

"Eurielle? Well, she's a freak. Haha."
"I heard na dati she used to be popular? Lol. Baka naman, attention seeker lang?"

Nagkamalay ako bigla ng may marinig akong isang malakas na tunog mula sa isang tape.

Puro boses na iniinsulto ako, kinamumuhian, at kung ano-ano pang mga salitang ibinibintang nila sa akin.

"Kilala ba nila ko? Halos lahat sila hindi ko kilala ang boses pero kung magsalita sila parang, kilala nila ako." I thought to myself while I'm trying to ignore those.

Nasaan ba ako? At ano nanamang meron? Right then I realized that I got kidnapped.

Dumilat ako, at pinagsisisihan kong ginawa pa 'yon, cause I saw an even worse things than I heard on the tape that had stopped. Napatayo ako sabay lapit do'n.

There's a picture, my picture specifically, with a knife hitted at the center while it was surrounded by these words:

Ugly

Stupid

Worthless

Attention Seeker

Fake

Loser

Annoying

Suicidal Freak!

Freak of nature!

Monster

Dumbass

Fool!

Lahat na ng masasakit na salita na parang mga karayom na isa-isang tinutusok ang puso ko. Hindi ko na tinuloy ang pagbabasa at ipinikit muli ang mata ko but I can't stop my tears from falling.

Why am I here? Why am I being humiliated? Do I deserve this?

"Ugly!"

Nagulat ako ng may biglang nagsalita, and according to her voice, I knew her.

"Stupid!"

And another voice, another needle that tortures my heart.

"Worthless!"

And another needle. Now I clearly know, why I'm here.

I suddenly open my eyes and saw Mugi right infront of me.

"Bakit mo kami sinira? Bakit?" she said in teary eyes at walang alinlangang sinabunutan niya ko.

"Aray, masakit Mugi!" I yelp,

"Masakit? Masakit ba?" hinila niya pa ng hinila ang buhok ko, wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang mapaiyak nalang.

They're here again to revenge.

"Mas masakit pa dito...." then she slapped me with her other hand, "...ang ginawa mo sa black illusion! Replacement ka lang pero ang lakas ng gana mong MA-NI-RA!" then she slapped me on my other cheek.

I deserve this.

"You promised! You promised! Pero, anong ginawa mo? Ano? Nang-iwan sa ere ng basta basta na lang? Tapos sinira mo pa ang image namin? Tapos hinipnotize mo pa yung kaisa-isa naming vocalist? Aren't you satisfied sa paninira ng sobra sa amin?"

"May explanation naman----" I try to defend my self but Ryan snapped me using his fist meeting my face, dahilan para matumba ako sa sahig and I blood runs out from my lips.

No matter how many times I'll try explaining to them. They'll never listen.

"Alam kong bawal pumatol sa babae pero, I have that enough reason to punch you! Huh! Explanation? Sa tingin mo 'yang explanation na 'yan? Maibabalik ang kung anong meron kami dati?"

Alam kong hindi na, pero...

"You ruined our dreams!" sabat ni Aiden sabay sinipa niya ko sa tagiliran ko dahilan para mapahiga ako sa sakit.

"Bakit hindi ka pa namatay?" sigaw ni Mugi sabay apak sa mukha ko at pilit idinidikdik sa sahig,

What he shouts echoes in my mind.

Bakit nga ba hindi na lang ako namatay? Siguro pag namatay ako, masaya sila. Walang problema, wala akong problema, wala silang matatawag na freak, stupid... bakit nga ba hindi?

"You deserve to be punished! Para maramdaman mo 'yung sakit na nararamdaman namin all these time!" right then millions of punches hit me.

Paulit ulit, hindi sila tumitigil. Kahit na sobrang sakit at nanghihina na ang katawan ko. Nagpaubaya na lang ako.

I never have been on this kind of pain, where I can't even defend myself.

Pero kelangan ko nga ba na idefend ang sarili ko? Kaya ko sana, but I have that thought na, Ishall leave them doing what they want...

Take revenge on me, cause I deserve this.

Sa sobrang sakit at hapdi ng mga sugat, wala akong ibang nagawa kundi mamilipit sa sakit at umiyak lang. They're not done yet, but I hope this ends.

Hindi siguro sila matatapos hangga't hindi ako namamatay, so I accept every punch and kick from them.

I should die, because I'm a fool, worthless, selfish, mapride na walang rason para mabuhay pa sa mundong ito.

Hanggang sa dumating sa punto na nagmanhid ang buong katawan ko,

Is this the end of the story? Where the heroin dies?

The end of my story. Where I die?

"S-sana m-masaya n-na k-kayo ngayon." I managed to talk and smile to the fullest cause I felt that this is the end.

They stop, momentarily.

Akala ko maaawa sila.

"Buhay ka pa?" pero hindi pala. Bakit naman sila maaawa? Kinamumuhian nga nila ako. Diba? So what they wanted is to end my existence, nothing else. So they continue.

Gusto ko na ring matapos to.

"S-sorry." I said, pero tuloy parin sila.

Sorry Xikee and Nikee for being so selfish.

Mom, Dad.... Im so selfish.

Leigh ikaw ng bahala kay Memo.

Then out of nowhere, I try again to speak, with a little HOPE.

"M-memo. S-save me."

and that's where my last breath end.

***

Bigla na lang lumiwanag pero blurred...

"A-Asan na ko?" I tried to utter...

Ramdam kong parang may nakabuhat sa 'kin and I unbelievably saw an arm with 4 lines on it.

4 lines?

It should be... 30.

"M-memo?"

I was trying to look on his face but then, I get unconscious.

Even until my lastest breath. His name, reigns. I even saw him. Patunay lang na mhal ko na nga siya. But I think it's too late.

:;:;