Only Fools...

'Danny is so buff' - Chapter Twenty-one

Danny had texted me a few times. Nothing major, only to send me a few funny memes or links to amusing Buzzfeed articles. To be honest, it was sort of heartbreaking. Every 'LOL' reminded me that we were just friends who joked around, and laughed at bad puns together. Every text that wasn't ended with three kisses reminded me that any flirty banter there once was between us was gone. And, fundamentally, every time my phone vibrated and 'Danny is so buff' popped up on the screen, he had made me change his contact name on my phone once after a bet, I was reminded that Danny was not with me - I was on my own, in every sense of the word.

Our Winter Fair Committee Group had also been active on Facebook over half term. As if thinking about Felicity wasn't enough, having her dump her stupid ideas all over the group chat was completely infuriating. She would counter every single thing that Rachel or I said with some stupid excuse as to why it was crap. She even managed to disagree with when we should have our next meeting. Apparently, my idea of meeting the second day back was 'crazy' and she 'couldn't believe I thought it was a good idea'. She, instead, suggested the third day because, obviously, we would be much more 'well-rested' and 'ready to engage our brains proactively' after an extra night's sleep. Why the hell didn't I think of that?! God, she is so infuriating. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't even be in this mess with Danny. Not to mention the fact that my life would be a hell of a lot happier.

When Amy's mum dropped me off at the train station I was nervous for what might be waiting for me on the other side. As I hugged Amy goodbye I didn't ever want to let go. When did everything get so complicated? It wasn't too long ago when Amy and I used to play on the street with our bikes every day after school and not have a care in the world. Boys make everything so complicated. Although, it's not even the boys most of the time - it's just all these bloody emotions and thoughts going through my head about said boys. Eugh. When did I manage to become a girl straight out of a crappy teen fiction novel? So gross.

I got on the train with Paramore blaring through my headphones. Knowing that I was going to be alone with my thoughts for three hours terrified me. I was in a completely dejected state and I was scared that I may talk myself, or rather think myself, into calling Danny. I decided to turn my phone off, just in case.

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I got to the room before Rachel did. I had unpacked all my stuff and begun reading when she finally arrived. 'Jess!' she screamed.

'Rachel!' I replied in the same excited, high-pitched tone.

'I can't stay too long, I promised Jack I'd go and see him as soon as I got here. But, obviously I couldn't leave you alone for too long - I had to see you girl.'

I laughed. 'Well I appreciate you coming to seeing me first Rach, I've missed you like crazy.'

'I missed you too. So much. I've done nothing but think about you Jess, I'm so sorry about everything. I can't believe it.'

'You and me both, Rach. It has been horrible to be honest, but I'm so glad to be back with you! Even just being with Amy was making me feel guilty.' I admitted.

'Jess!' She exclaimed. 'You don't have to feel guilty for anything you've done nothing wrong. You've been such a good friend to Amy don't worry. You need to start focusing on yourself.'

If only she knew what I had done. I had every right to feel like I'd been a bad friend. I'd been the worst friend ever. I made a mental note to never tell Rachel about the incident. She clearly viewed me as a good friend and a good person and I did not want to lose her to a silly mistake I made years ago.

'Thanks Rachel.' I hugged her. 'Now you go off and see your man, don't let mopey old me stop you from having fun!'

She laughed. 'Okay Jess, you sure you're okay?'

'I'll be fine. Now go. Go.'

'Okay, see you girl.'

'See you.' I smiled as she walked through the door. My grin only faltering once she left. But I was at peace after seeing her. I'd get through this. I had friends that cared about me and this thing with Danny would go away soon. It had to.

It had to.

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A/N

HEY GUYS!!!

So, it's been a while right?!?!?! If any of you are even still here I'm going to try and start uploading again! :/

Not sure how it's going to go cos my a-levels do start in like a month but OH WELL. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it ;)

My basic plan though is to finish this in summer, I only have like about ten chapters left I think. Maybe more, we'll see.

Soooooo anyway............

MORE TALK OF THE INCIDENT!!! what could it be omgeeeee. also awww Jess seems kinda upset, hope she starts feeling better soon.

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