this book is for 18+ only ❥
beomgyu is just nothing for yeonjun.
he will never have a place in yeonjun's heart.
because they are just friends...
friends with benefits.
and yeonjun hasn't moved on from his ex girlfriend yet.
but even so, beomgyu stil...
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beomgyu and yeonjun didn’t let their performances be affected because of what happened to the two of them.
whenever the group is doing live, the two act lively and always bickering in front of the camera.
even if the two don’t make it obvious, their other members know there’s something odd about them.
soobin often hears beomgyu sniffing every night. he knows that the younger always crying every night. but he was hesitant whether he would comfort him or not.
when they are in the living room, taehyun and hueningkai notice beomgyu’s silence. he used to be the loudest, so it was odd that he suddenly fell silent.
when beomgyu and hueningkai were washing the dishes. the youngest dared to ask beomgyu.
“hyung, what happened to you? why are you so gloomy?”
beomgyu looked at the youngest with dead eyes. it was obvious that he had been crying for several days, his eyes were swollen.
“i don’t know.”
hueningkai rolled his eyes. shaking his head.
“then why do you look so broken? did yeonjun hyung dump you?”
beomgyu averted his eyes and stared at the dishes in the sink. biting the bottom of his lip, preventing himself from crying.
“something like that.”
“i mean, that’s why it’s quiet every night. no moans, bed creaking, and skin slapping.”
beomgyu glared at hueningkai who just smiled at him very sweetly. but the youngest stopped smiling when he saw beomgyu crying.
“gyu hyung? shit i’m so sorry! i’m just kidding.”
he hugged beomgyu, patting his back, stopping him from crying.
“i missed him, we’re just here in the same place but he seems miles and miles away from me, hyuka.”
“shh… hyung trust me, everything will be fine.” he whispered.
“no. i don’t think so. i can’t help but miss him. i also can’t help but think about what happened to us, it hurts so much, hyuka.”
“why hyung? why do you love yeonjun hyung so much until you have nothing left for yourself?”
why does beomgyu love yeonjun so much? because yeonjun taught him how to love, he taught him what love is.
but forgot yeonjun taught him how to stop loving someone.
so beomgyu doesn’t know when he will stop his love for yeonjun. does he have to do it? or will it just stop on its own?
“maybe i don’t care about myself so i don’t have any self-love left. right now i’m trying to be okay. i’m trying not to think about him but… but…”
“shhh… hyung, just forget about it.”
“how?”
“just forget it. he didn’t care for you.”
“but i care for him, hyuka.”
“there’s a difference.”
“it’s the same.”
“no, because you cared for him, but he doesn’t.”
beomgyu was silent. because hueningkai is right.
“like, you want to be with him, but he wants to be with her.”
“you’re thinking of him, but he’s thinking of her.”
“you love him, but he loves her.”
her, and beomgyu will never beher.
°＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚° °♡° °˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊°
the next update is on wednesday. thanks for reading~!♡
