Circle: The Love triange that made me crazy

Circle twenty nine

I couldn't Stand to think of what happened between Zack and Johnny. I just hoped he did not find out what went on between myself and Zack. It would crush him.

I stared at my phone. Johnny sent me a text. I knew he was worried. I responded telling him I was ok. He should he fine for the rest of the night. As for Zack, I knew he wouldn't be coming around here any time soon. I had time to myself. It felt good. Quite and nice. I liked the peacefulness. I started some homework and about an hour later I was all done.

My mind began to wonder as I laid down in my bed. There was nothing to do on a Thursday night. No band practice or gig. The label wants the band to get a demo cd out soon. They've done so well. Someone was tapping on my window. I didn't expect Zack to be there. And he wasn't. Johnny was. I opened it up to let him on.

"thought you would need some company so I would stop over" I gave him a quick kiss. It's good not to be alone with Zack for a bit.

"Did you hit him" Johnny turned to me. And looked at me with a surprised look on how face.

"No I didn't I wanted to though but the sound of your voice convince me not to" I felt myself cringe. What could I have done to do such a thing. I've been so unfaithful. I guess you can call it cheating because I did kiss Zack more then once. But this was something I did not want to loose. I can't. It's the only real or relationship I had. I knew the type of man Zack was. A player of course. And he does not have feelings for me whatsoever. Some how I will have to avoid him.

Johnny had fallen asleep. I pulled out my phone and whipped my face, Why was Zack on my mind I asked myself. I knew the fact that he did not love me nor did he want anything to do with me. To him, I was just another pretty face. I looked over at johnny, who was sleeping sound. We where perfect together and he knew that. I wish I could too

I began a text. I noticed I had a message

Hey, I'm sorry for what I've done to you. Brenns we have something here that is special and I will not stop loving you. Just, give me some time to get my head on straight. You're still mine forever

Z

It was short and sweet. Like Zack. I smiled at the text. I responded a quick and simple text. "Thank you"

We continued to talk the rest of the night. Like friends, not Lovers, There will always be a place in my heart for Zack. And somewhere in his heart there will be a place for me. I knew somehow he was right and that we where meant to be together but yet, we where apart. But everything felt so right and yet he gave me mixed signals. I wondered if I should tell him how I felt. If I should tell him the real truth. Would that scare him away? or would it make him come to me?

I began my text message.I had to know how he felt about me. If his feelings where real or if I meant nothing to him

Zack replied a few moments later

You're never far from my mind Brenns, I have deep feelings for you but yet we are so young. This doesn't change anything about you or I. We will still have our moments. I love you and you know that. You know how you feel. See you tomorrow

I knew what Zack meant, And he did mean it. It takes a lot out of a guy to show that he really and trully loves a girl. I just wish I could kiss him. Maybe all these girls are just for fun and maybe he want's to test the waters with them until he decides to become serious and that is fine with me. I think it is a good idea considering the fact that we are still in high school. There is no rush. But we are meant to be together I know that

It was late at night, I crept out of my house swiftly. I had to see Zack. When I approached his house his window was open. I texted his phone and he looked out. Zack Came down within five minutes,

"Hey Brenna boo" He said. I smiled softly.

"Hey Zack"  We embraced in a hug. I felt so safe and warm. He was such a good friend. Zack's face came close to mine. He smiled and I smiled back.

"Don't let Carly get you down, I won't allow her near the guys and you're friends. She actually wants to stay near her friends instead of mine. She hates the idea of me being in a rock band and all." He put his head down. I lifted his chin with my hand. Zack's eyes met mine. Our eyes connected. I could feel my heart in my chest

Our lips touched swiftly. He deepened the kiss and I kissed him back. It felt so right and yet I knew I shouldn't be doing this. Zack held my hands as he pulled away. I could not resist kissing him. His lips where so soft and tender. They fit perfect with him. Each time I kissed him I had butterflies in my stomach.

"I love you" He whispered in my ear. I felt his breath on my neck and I shut my eyes and smiled. I kissed his cheek "I love you too" I said. One day, I thought, he will be mine.

We pulled apart and I began to walk home. Zack gave me a kiss goodbye. I climbed the stares to my room and laid down next to Johnny. He stirred as I kissed him. But then smiled at my touch. I watched him sleep before falling asleep myself. His arms where my home