Till Death || Loki

Chapter 15

The next morning, Loki and I woke up in the same position on the couch. I rub my eyes and I place my hand on his bare chest again.

"Good morning" he says

"Good morning. I didn't know you were awake. Did I wake you up?" I ask

"No, I've been awake for about an hour now" he answers

"I'm sorry I kept you here" I say

"It's ok. I didn't want to get up yet anyway" he says and I smile.

He holds his hand up and a new shiny total black dagger appears in it. Carved in on the blade were different symbols and the hilt was also black metal. He flipped it within his fingers and as it moved, you could see the reflection of the light, shining on the sharp tip.

"What do you think?" Loki asks

"Um... Is it..."

"100% vibranium" he says

"When did you have time for this?" I ask

"Yesterday. I have connections too" he answers and winks at me

"Amazing" I say, rolling my eyes.

"Come on, you knew that I was going to make it. I always keep my promises" he says and I look at him with a straight face
"That doesn't include backstabbing people" he clarifies.

"Whatever" I say

"That's how I show love, with backstabbing people. My brother, my father, everyone. Because if you think about it, love is a dagger. It's a weapon to be wielded far away or up close. You can see yourself in it. It's beautiful. Until it makes you bleed" he says bringing it close to my face
"But ultimately, when you reach for it, it isn't real" he continues and then he makes it disappear again.

He looks at me and his smile falls
"That was a terrible analogy" he admits

"No, actually, I think that you were kind of right. Love is a dagger. But you trust that the other person won't use it against you" I say as he looks me in the eyes.

I break the eye contact and I get up from the couch
"But in our situation, trust is not really a thing, right?" I ask

"Yeah" he answers as he watches me walk away.

I go to the bathroom and I throw up in the toilet. As soon as Loki hears me, he comes to see me.

He leans against the door frame and crosses his arms
"I hope you have realized by now that I'm not father material" he says

"I'm not pregnant, you moron. I haven't had a period in the last 250 years" I say

"Good" he says

"Yeah. Pausing period spell. And I can restart it whenever I want" I explain and he nods.

"Then is your magic causing this?" he asks and this time kneels down with me

"Maybe" I answer

"I might be able to help with that" he says as he helps me get up

"What?" I ask

"I was able to heal your hands because it was an external injury, but in order to try and go inside, I need to get past your walls of protection" he adds

"No" I answer immediately

"Let me try" he insists

"No, because letting my guard down also means letting my mind protection down, and there is no way I'm letting you get inside my mind" I say