Unguarded Love

26-Sleep Over?

"Why are you nervous Percy?" He asks, clearly sensing my awkwardness. Nice to know I'm that transparent right now. 

I sigh, "I want to have sex with you Asa but I'm scared."

His brows furrow in confusion, "What are you scared of?"

Just be honest with him Seph. That's all you want from him which means you need to lead by example. 

"I'm scared that we're going to have sex and you're going to feel overwhelmed and run away from me again. Asa I can't do that." I tell him honestly. That would completely reck me. 

He pinches my chin between two of his fingers, angling my face towards him. 

"I'm not going anywhere Persephone, I promise. I want to do this for real."

"What do you mean?" I ask, trying not to read too much into it. 

He smiles, biting his lower lip, "I mean I want you to be my girlfriend Percy."

I blink at him. 

"Have you been abducted by aliens?" I ask and he shakes his head, a chuckle escaping him. 

"I'm serious. I want this with you, I want to try to be the guy you deserve." He tells me and sadness filters through my joy. 

"You're already that guy and so much more Asa. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you." I say and I can tell he doesn't quite believe me, thats ok I'll make him see it eventually. 

Leaning forward I press a kiss to his lips, "And the answer is yes, I will be your girlfriend."

The widest smile I have ever seen escapes him and I can't help but mirror him. 

I finally understand what being on cloud nine means. 

"You're perfect Percy." He tells me before leaning in and kissing me. 

I deepen the kiss, falling back onto the bed and he comes to hover over me. 

I was so happy in this moment my heart could actually explode. 

Being with Asa was like falling from a plane with no parachute but I was willing to free fall if it meant being with him. 

Asa's shirt is the first to go followed by mine until we are skin to skin, his body between my legs. 

Then his head is down there, doing what he does best and I love every second of it. He truly does look so pretty when he goes down on me. 

When I come down from my high he's back to eye level with me. 

I feel his length sliding between my folds making my back arch wanting him inside me. 

"Condom." I mutter and Asa reaching off the bed and grabs his jeans. He fishes a condom from the back pocket and quickly slips it on. 

Then he's lining himself up and pushing inside me. 

A gasp leaves me as I stretch around him. 

I haven't had sex in a while so it took me a moment to accommodate to his length. 

"Fuck, fuck, fuck." Asa chanted as he slid inside me to the hilt. 

As he gave me a moment to adjust he stared down at me with a look of awe. 

Swiping some hair out of my face he whispers, "God, you're beautiful."

His compliments always make my heart soar because I see the sincerity in Asa's eyes. He doesn't say them because he feels like he has to but because he feels that way in the moment. 

Slowly Asa starts to move inside me. 

"Fuck you feel good." He groans, "God, Persephone."

Hearing my name coming from his lips never gets old. 

Reaching down Asa strokes my clit bringing me closer and closer and I can feel him getting there too. 

So much has built up to this moment I don't think either of us are lasting long. 

I'm the first to lose it, when he sucks my earlobe into his mouth I tighten around him and eventually he follows. 

"I promise I usually last longer than that." He says against my ear and I laugh, "Isn't that what they all say?"

He groans and I can't help but laugh more. Asa knows I'm joking but its fun to tease him about it. 

Slowly he slides out of me. 

He removes the condom, throwing it in the trash before turning towards me in bed. 

I pull him towards me so he's resting his head against my chest. 

Secretly I did this so I could play with his hair. 

"I heard that in a few weeks we're playing against a team close to where I am from." Asa says softly. 

I don't speak I just run my fingers through his brown hair as he continues. 

"I think I want to go see my mom. I know it sounds stupid but I just need to see how she's doing. I need to see if she's doing better."

My heart aches for him. 

"Do you think I should see her?" He asks, his eyes still closed. 

I think it over for a moment before responding.

"I think you need to do what's best for you, love. I know you regret how you left her so if you need to see her I say do it but if it's only going to bring you more pain I don't want that for you." I say in complete honesty. 

He nods against my chest, "I have a few weeks to decide." Then he opens his eyes and the sadness in his eyes has my throat restricting. 

"What if she's doing worse?"

There is always a possibility, especially if she stayed with her abuser but none of it would be Asa's fault, even though I know he won't see it that way. 

"No matter what, it's not on you. You did what you could but in the end you had pick yourself. Don't let the choices they made affect the rest of your life Asa."

He hums before resting his head back onto my chest. 

"I wish I saw what you see in me Percy."

I wish he did too. 

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