Love Cuts - A Danisnotonfire Fanfiction

A/N

Okay. I know how much people hate authors notes - y'know, c'mon, get on with the story! - but I really need to just write this because I have nowhere else to go for it.
Have you ever gotten into an argument, been so blinded by your own sociopathic ego that you didn't think about others and hurt people? Because that's what happened to me.
I won't give you the full details (it's so I can keep my anonymity online) but I was arguing about something, I snapped at some people and one of them got really really upset...
Usually, I wouldn't really care. I've been gifted to not usually feel guilt. I didn't even feel guilty until...
I learnt that she had cut again. And it was all my fault.
I fucked up so badly and I can't talk to anyone who was involved because I'd just get a hurl of hate. My family and friends irl don't know about it. I'm too scared to talk to my crush because he'd hate me too, and anyway, we've been silent to each other for over a month.
Maybe some of you hate me for this too. And I really am sorry about it. I wish I could change it. I wanted to see conflict... I love arguing... the heat, the tension, the excitement of showing who's right and who's wrong... but I was a complete shit-headed dick and I didn't think straight.
I haven't cut - I'm proud to say I've resisted the temptation - but I have had suicidal thoughts about it. Then again, I'm always suicidal. Every day, every second. Maybe it's just hasn't really kicked in yet because I only found out a while ago.
I'm sorry if I wasted your time here, but I needed to put down some thoughts.
I hope you're enjoying the story.
~ Inferno ~