하루만 ~ Just One Day (Taejoon)

Just One Day

True to his word, Namjoon hyung never contacted me after that. Didn't stop by the convenience store I work at, changed his shift timings at the gas station. And he did not call me, until today when I called him.

When he picked up the phone, did he sound glad? How did Namjoon hyung feel when I called him? Was he annoyed? Did he not want to come? But I know him well enough, if he doesn't like something he would just postpone it. But, for me, he picked up my call right away and was here in a span of an hour or so.

And the awkwardness of what had happened didn't seem to affect his actions towards me. we were just so normal with each other, nothing was awkward. It was normal.

Have I moved on from him?

No.

Do I still love him?

Yes.

Namjoon hyung is sitting leaning against a wall. The others have split into twos or threes. Doing their own thing, taking pictures from Jin hyung's polaroid camera, fencing with tree branches. Walking on edges ("GET DOWN FROM THERE BEFORE YOU FUCKING HURT YOURSELF!" I hear Yoongi hyung shout at Jungkook.)

I grab a red spray can and walk towards Namjoon hyung, he sees me coming but he doesn't budge at all. I shake the can and outline his figure.

"How are you?" Namjoon hyung asks. I just shrug a single shoulder and continue to spray. Namjoon hyung looks down at his palms.

"Does he still hit you?" he suddenly asks.

I freeze. He knew? Namjoon hyung knew that dad used to hit me? Not only that, now how shall I explain to him without letting him know. It's still too fresh of a memory, he's not dead right? No he isn't. I definitely did not stab him.

I take in a deep breath and continue to outline his figure.

 "Well, he won't anymore," I responded quietly. Namjoon hyung frowns at this, but I am not gonna give him a chance to ask more. "You can get up now," I ask him and Namjoon hyung gets to his feet, dropping the topic.

I don't want to make some complicated art, so I just draw ears and two spots as ears. I look at him with a smile, "How is it?" I ask him. Namjoon hyung crosses his arms and looks at the figure, he sucks in a breath, and nods his head, "Is that supposed to be pikachu? Did you just make me a pokemon?" he asked me. I nod to his question, lips pulled into a thin line.

"Then...." Namjoon hyung starts and picks up an empty water bottle and throws it at me. I block it and fall to the ground laughing, Namjoon hyung tackles me and pins my hands above my head.

 "You think I'm a pokemon huh? You just want to keep me in your pocket,hm? How does that sound like your personal pocket monster?" Namjoon hyung mocks as leans closer, chuckling evilly. I just laugh underneath him, and we both stop laughing and look into each other's eyes.

Our breaths start getting heavier and deeper as we gaze into each other's eyes. Namjoon hyung's eyes flicker back and forth from my eyes and lips, and he fixes his sight on my lips. I close my eyes, he leans closer and then suddenly he falls onto me. His entire weight on me. I open my eyes in shock and find Jimin and Hobi hyung on Namjoon hyung, weighing him down onto me.

"What are you guys doing?! Get off of him!" Jin hyung scolds them and both of them giggle and get off of us. Namjoon hyung remains on me, his head resting on my chest.

He can definitely hear my heart banging against my chest. "Kim Namjoon-shi, should I give you a special invitation?" Jin hyung sarcastically asks him. Namjoon hyung's eyes are blown wide and he scrambles off of me. His cheeks are red is embarrassment and he nervously laughs, fixing his jacket.