하루만 ~ Just One Day (Taejoon)

Just One Day

Namjoon nods in agreement, back in school all of them were confessing their crushes, most of them said no, and few of them confessed their innocent primary school crushes. But, Taehyung said that there's someone whom he likes, and also that was when he came out to his friends. That he liked men. But he never told anyone.

"Yeah...who was it?" Namjoon asks. Taehyung chuckles.

"I still like him, I probably love him..."

"Oh? Who's the lucky guy?"

Taehyung doesn't respond. Instead he sits up, back facing Namjoon, taking deep breaths. Namjoon lowers his book and looks at Taehyung. He rests his hand on Taehyung's shoulder. Taehyung suddenly brings his palm to his face and wipes his eyes. Namjoon realizes that he was crying and tenses up, he immediately speaks up, "Hey, Taehyung, It's alright. You don't have to say anything. Don't feel like you have to tell-"

"It's you hyung," Taehyung whispers out.

Namjoon's eyes widened. Then he shuts his eyes tight. He's shocked to learn about this, but not surprised. It doesn't surprise him. In a way, Namjoon kinda always hoped and prayed it was someone who will treat Taehyung better. Who is willing to give him a better life, who can give him a better life, it upsets him. Taehyung deserves someone better. Namjoon doesn't think he can do that.

Namjoon removes his hand from Taehyung's shoulder, and he looks away, guilt and regret growing in him. Taehyung turns towards Namjoon, "See?! This is why I never told you," he shouts in agony. "I fucking knew it, I shouldn't have told you this, now it's going to change euh-everything!" Taehyung cries out, Namjoon remains silent and looks away. He doesn't have the courage to look at Taehyung.

Taehyung starts to sob loudly, tears continue to stream down his cheeks. He gets off the bed and paces around the container.

"At least say that you are straight or-or you ha-hate me!" Taehyung sputters out. He walks up to the older man and grabs his shoulders, making Namjoon face him. Namjoon shuts his eyes tightly and looks down. "Lie to me, if that's what you need to do! Lie to me! Say that you hate me!" Taehyung forces, lifting Namjoon's chin up to see his face.

"You know I can't Taehyung," Namjoon whispers out, finally looking into Taehyung's eyes.

It's destroying both of them. Taehyung lets Namjoon go and walks away from him.

"Then why are you making this difficult?"

Namjoon stands up and walks to Taehyung, he grabs his shoulders and makes Taehyung face him. "You know we cannot, you deserve better than me Taehyung," Namjoon tries to explain.

Taehyung scoffs and pushes his arms off. "You think I deserve better huh? What about you? You deserve better too! You deserve better than me too! That's why I'm asking fu-for you to fucking lie to me! Say that you hate me! Anything!" Taehyung shouts once more.

"It's not like I'm asking you to be with me, this is my chance to move on!! I-I need to fucking move on! It's killing me hy-hyung!"

Namjoon remains silent, eyes shut tight, facing away from Taehyung. This is too much for him, too much power. Too much love, if he starts showing his love, there is no end to it. But he knows that this is not possible, Namjoon has responsibilities, Taehyung needs someone stable.

Taehyung laughs drily. He grabs his bag, and opens the door.

"Always playing the martyr, you think you know the best fir me...you don't," Taehyung mutters as he gathers his things.
"Don't contact me hyung. Don't come looking for me, I'll not respond," Taehyung says one last time and shuts the door leaving Namjoon alone in the dimly lit container.