Here I am again-
Falling apart
Trying to figure out who I am,
But I'm losing my spark.
The motivation I once had
It's barely there anymore
I've become so sad,
What am I waiting for?
I'm disgusted with my body
With my spirit and mind
He tries to save me,
Like he can turn back time
Before I ever made that first cut
Lying on the bathroom floor
Crying with my best friend,
Telling myself, "This is the end"
Now I'm attempting to rid my demons,
But they stay healthy and alive...
The stronger they get,
The more I wish on suicide
Am I selfish?
To want what I never had...
Is it wrong?
To say hateful things,
so I won't be the only one sad...
Who have i become?
I promised I wouldn't end up like this
This isn't what I want.
I never asked for scars on my wrist
And when have I ever,
Said I'd rather be alone...
Maybe since my friends-
Abandoned me-
left me on my own
I am no one special,
Just a body with brown eyes
I'm not a pretty girl,
I'll never be the perfect size
Society is handing me my ammo
Everyone is begging for me to let go
And there he is, standing in the shade
Whispering for me to please stay
And so I try to stay strong
I throw my blades away
I hide my pills from myself
because he says,
"You'll be happy one day"
I scream into the mirror
"daddy what's wrong with me"
I am what I fear,
Why can't anybody else see,
What society has done to me.
I'm losing all of my friends,
Questioning my existence
Because if I were to die tonight,
Who would miss this?
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PoetryThese are all of the poems I've written so far. I'll try to update but I usually forget about things like this. But don't try to take my poems please. They've taken up time and came from my heart. Soo if you want to share them or something inbox me...
