Because I'm a Nerd.

Chapter 19- "How about we call her cheeseball?"

"Oh! Yeah. Scar, we're going on a date today. It's our monthly anniversary. Don't wait up. We might never come homeee" she stretches her last word. I fake gag.

"I won't be home either. I have a sleepover at Adrian's. Drop me off to Lauren's." I say

"Don't be an ass. She lives down the lane. Get your butt on the road. And let Matt and me enjoy!" Hazel screams from Matt's car. She gives me a thumbs up and rides away.

I smile, seeing her happy makes me happy.

I sigh. There's something about what Hazel told me that's bothering me, although I can't figure out what that is.

I toss my nigh clothes, a toothbrush and my charger into a pink duffel bag that Dad gave me when I was seven. Stuffing my phone into my pocket, I put the bag across my shoulders, slip on my flip-flops, turn the lights off and leave.

The door shuts with a click. Satisfied, I make my way across the street, a few houses down I see Lauren in her lawn and her brown hair reminds me of Nathan.

All of a sudden, I realize what bothered me about Hazel's playful statement.

"Monthly anniversary..." I recollect with a little gasp. I pull out my phone. It's the 10th of December, which means there's three days left. Nathan had asked me out on 13th of November. Although I'm an ardent worshipper of romance and all things cheesy, I'm not really a romantic person myself.

I mean, I am but then I'm not.

It's like, you know, whenever Nathan sends me something cheesy, I think of a million ways to respond to it. And then, I do nothing. I'm not romantic enough to say anything back. I'm more of the shy-biting-her-lip-blushing type girlfriend.

There's a queasy feeling in my stomach as I realize, with a touch of longing that Nathan and I haven't even looked at each other all day.

I don't know how to face him right now. I can't. I should just go away. But then again, I have to go to Adrian's with Lauren. Sighing, I make my way to the house.

Lauren waves and gestures for me to come in. Thankfully, my boyfriend isn't home. I let out an ironic chuckle at my moronic thought. I might as well be the only girlfriend in human history who's actually glad to realize that her boyfriend's not home.

Although, and this must be considered, things are not exactly gung ho between us right now.

And, may be, under the circumstances, I'm forgiven.

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Lauren's mom drops us off at Adrian's house and speeds away. Lauren throws her bag over her shoulder and rings the bell. I look around. It's been almost a month since I came to Adrian's place.

The lawn is a vast expanse of all things flowery and green and the teakwood shed still stands strong. Adrian's house is still painted grey. Ha! Haven't missed any changes! As we walk inside, we see Ricky and Adrian cuddling on the couch. Lauren makes a gagging reaction sound while I give no reaction.

Everything that's on my mind right now has to do with Nathan. And he is one of those people who can keep me absorbed without being there. Thinking about him is enough to keep me from teasing my best friend. And when you think about it, that's not really a good thing.

Honestly, a little over a month ago, I'd have never imagined that a guy could have so much of power on me. It's frightening really... the way things change in the blink of an eye.

Assuring myself that this also means that my dilemma over Nathan can end any moment now, I push that thought to the back of my head and put on a normal face.