chance ― mason mount

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ooo┆CHANCE *°࿐
ch. o2 ( reconnecting )

Elysia's flat was quiet, the type of quiet that can only be achieved when one is alone. The same type of quiet that leaves you getting irretrievably lost in your own thoughts.

That's why the twenty one year old was sat on her sofa, absentmindedly staring out of the window at the grey London weather. Her mind, however, was racing as she contemplated both the pros and cons of accepting her ex boyfriend back into her life.

Elysia hated feeling so dependent on someone, especially a boy who had deceived, her lied to her and eventually broken her heart. She had given him the power to break her and he had taken his opportunity, she had allowed him to control what she said, how she acted and what she did.

But he wasn't just a boy.

It must be saying something that he didn't have a girlfriend... right? Elysia was certain that there were thousands of girls sliding into his DMs constantly, all much better for him than she could ever be. But he hadn't chosen any of them, instead he chose to fight for Elysia again and he clearly wasn't giving up.

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elysiadaniels✓ i'm about to make a bad decision :)

memeulous If you get cancelled can i make a video about it?
↳elysiadaniels sure

declanrice Please don't x
↳elysiadaniels too late x

jackgrealish JHEE look at you go

freyanightingale do i need to babysit you again?
↳elysiadaniels probably yes <3

user1 it better not be something to do with mason

user2 girl he's your ex for a reason

user3 You're too pretty for this

INSTAGRAM DMS!

Mason Mount

I miss you

Congrats on a mil, I'm so proud
of you if it means anything

It's been a year since I made
the worst mistake of my life and I'll
be forever sorry that I couldn't be
the man I should have been for you.

I would apologise for spamming
your DMs but I know you don't see
these. Maybe that's why I send them.

I regret it all.

me too

el? wtf

that's me

Why have you replied to me?

You shouldn't have replied to me!

why not?

because you deserve better than me

but i don't want
better than you

i want you

What??

i can't keep pretending that i'm not
still in love with you, i've tried to move
on but i can't. i've tried so fucking
hard but it feels impossible.

 
and i hate you, i really do but i can't
help loving you too. and i hate that i
can't get over you because i know i
should but the thing is that i don't
even want to.

everyone tells me how bad you
are for me but they don't ever
talk about how good you were for
me. you were my everything and
you ruined me. you fucked me up
more than i've ever been fucked
up before but i can't bring myself
to blame you for it even when i
know that i should.

to me it feels like i'm the one
that wasn't good enough for
you, those girls that you
slept with were everything i've
ever wanted to be and you knew
that but you always told me not
to worry. maybe i was good
enough for mason but i'm
definitely not good enough for
the Mason Mount.

I'm sorry.

I'm so fucking sorry that I ever made
you feel like you aren't enough. you
are more than enough. I was the
luckiest kid in the world when you
were mine and I screwed it up because
the fame and all that shit went to my
head.

That's not an excuse and I'm not trying
to excuse what I did, I'm trying to be
completely honest with you.

If you'd ever think about letting me
be part of your life again, id be forever
grateful because I know that I've
done nothing to deserve it.

Just think about it will you?
ʳᵉᵃᵈ

― I didn't know how to make it clear so I'll say it here: the messages that Mason sent before she answered were over a long period of time so he sort of used the dms to rant(?)