Fragile..?

:Ch45: (゜-゜)

'Masky might die because of me...This Is My Fault....its my friends all over again...'

Slender seemed to have noticed my thoughts immediately as his tendrils came out and grabbed all the boys.

"ENOUGH!" Slender demanded an calmed his voice," thats enough fighting! All of you to your rooms and don't come out till you have learned to not put stress on Y/N!"

"You're a dead man masky!" Jeff warned

Persephone then appeared and she came to me. She sent a glare at the boys as she past them.

"Lets go dear, we're going to Olympus." She said sweetly

"WHAT!" The boys freaked

"Lady persephone, are you sure-"

"I'm certain." Persephone said," now, come along dear."

She lent me her hand and grinny turned to a cat an hopped onto my shoulders. I hesitated to take her hand as I wasn't sure who would be angry or not.

'I'm sorry, I'm ruining everything! I don't deserve to go!'

The house shifted me onto the porch just as I started running. It took me a moment to process that I was outside as the forest shifted me home.

I ran inside and felt myself heavily breathing by the door.

I locked the door and went around the house locking everything. I passed by the man an went to my moms room.

I slammed the door closed and laid in her bed, throwing the blankets over me and trying to hide. Grinny laid down with me and gently purred.

"Mom..." I whimpered," what do I do..?"

I felt like so many people hated me now or tried to blame masky for something I allowed.

"I really wish you could help...i miss you so much mom..." I whimpered

All I could think of now was my mother and how she would help or maybe even make me laugh. I didn't know how to handle my emotions, let alone people.

I wasn't even a social person before the Hunting Points game, I was just in my own world. I had no one to cry over or worry about losing someone.

I didn't have to worry about emotions cause everyone saw me as bright and stupid.

'I miss just being bright and stupid...'

I heard the door slightly open and creak.

"Um..." The man said unsure," you okay...kid?"

I hugged grinny and tried to calm down.

'I'm just overreacting, overthinking! Calm the fuck down!'

"I'm fine." I replied," go away."

"Okay." He said awkwardly

I heard the door close but realized I was doing the same thing I did to mom. Push her away.

I got up quick and ran to the door, opening it.

"W-wait!" I said quickly

He turned back an looked at me as I hesitated and kinda stepped back into the room.

"I-..." I hesitated and then sighed," I really need to stop pushing people away..."

I hung my head a little and then saw smiles an neon come running. They sat at my feet an I petted their heads.

"I-I'm not okay..." I said," I lied when you had asked...which you probably already knew?"

I heard footsteps and then saw shoes in front of me as well as a chuckle.

"I did, but you have every right to push people away or lie to them when your upset, kid." He said an patted my head

"Don't touch me-"

"Got it, still not at that trust level!" He said awkwardly

I smiled a little an crossed my arms.

"Wanna talk about it?" He asked

I kinda didn't wanna but I might as well tell someone.

"Yeah.." I said softly

He said we could talk in the living room and so we went there and sat down. He sat at a distance and seemed to try to give me space.

Smiles an neon cuddled with me as grinny sat around my neck.

"I don't even know where to begin!" I said as I hugged smiles

"Well, start to what happened first and what it lead to." He said," or you can say things at random."

I started from where it began. Which meant I told him that I almost lost my virginity but didn't say any details.

But I did tell him that I allowed it and that it wasn't the other persons fault. I didn't mention the names or people who were apart of the story an he seemed fine with that.

"And so when they were all fighting, I thought I was about to get said man who almost took my virginity killed and I didn't want to get any more people killed! I already lost friends, I'm scared to lose the ones I have, I'm scared to push them away, I'm scared I will end up getting them killed, I'm scared to make new friends or new relationships because I know it'll be my fault! I'll be the reason why they died and I'm gonna be stuck with that forever-"

"Whoa whoa whoa, kid, relax!" He said," don't get too much into all this stuff."

I stopped myself and petted smiles head as both dogs whimpered.

"Jeez kid...your life has been hell an back." He said softly," how are you even sane, should I be concerned?"

It felt strange that he cared even though I had threatened him along with the bitch...and pushed him away or wanted nothing to do with him.

"I'm sorry." I said softly," for threatening you and being a bitch..."

"Its alright." He said kindly," you were just defending your home and yourself."

I felt even worse that he forgave me just like that.

"God I'm a horrible person." I whined as I buried my head in smiles fur.

"You're not a horrible person!" He said," you just finished a rant saying how scared you were to lose people or make new relationships- sure you don't wanna put yourself out there anymore but you still are for the people you care about!"

That sent me straight to tears because he was just like my mom.

"You're just like her..." I mumbled," just like my mom...so kind even if I am the worst to deal with..."

It was silent as I heard some movement and felt a tap on my head. I looked up an saw he was crouched in front of me, lending me his hand.

"Why don't we start over." He said," Hey kid, I'm Carl Jacobs! I might be your new dad from now on as I am dating you're mom that you call a bitch."

I scoffed a bit at the end of his statement but wasn't sure if I should let him into my life. I took his hand hesitantly and shook it.

"Hi carl, I'm Y/N and I think I'm just as much of a bitch as she is." I replied softly

"No, you're a lot more broken than her. She lies, you don't." He smiled

I found this a bit comforting and smiled a bit.

"Now, why don't we talk some more and let out anything else that might be bothering you." He said kindly

"I'd like that." I said softly with a slight nod

He sat down but this time next to me or near me. We talked for a bit and he told me all about himself as I told him some things about me.

'This is comforting...'

To Be Continued...

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