Garden of Wounds (Panacea Series #1)

Chapter 29

I just cried and cried as I watched him drag me to an abandoned building. Walang katao-tao rito kaya alam kong kahit ano pa ang gawin kong sigaw, walang makakarinig... walang makakatulong sa akin. It's just a waste of my voice... and I know that I can't escape, no matter what I do.

"You just have to satisfy me. Hindi naman mahirap 'yon..." Wika nito na halos hindi ko na maintindihan dahil nawala na ako sa wisyo.

"Please don't do this to me. Please don't..." I shook my head repeatedly as I was begging.

"Isang beses lang naman 'to, Elvira," and then he let out a loud laugh.

Suddenly, it rains heavily. We were inside the abandoned building and I could see the heavy rain pouring down. Ayon ang naging kasangga ko habang umiiyak ako nang malakas. Sinasabayan nito ang malakas kong paghagulgol na lalo pang nagpasama ng aking pakiramdam.

"Damn, Elvira," my head was spinning as he pushed me to the wall. "I've been waiting this for a long time..." Kinilabutan ako sa pagtawa niya nang malakas.

His hand landed on my blouse. He tore it violently. Sunod niyang sinira ang aking brassiere. It reveals my two breasts. His gaze became even more fixed on that. I even saw him lick his lip. After that, he removed my skirt. His hand crawled from my thigh up to my treasure. Mas lalong lumakas ang aking hikbi dahil wala akong magawa.

"Stop..." I said, begging.

Wala na akong saplot sa katawan dahil lahat ay natanggal na niya. He unbuttoned his pants and quickly took off his t-shirt. He leaned over me and began everything. He started with my breast first. He licked my peak as he was caressing the other one.

His mouth went up to my neck. He kissed it onto my lip until his lips dropped onto my stomach. His hands roamed around my body.

Wala akong ginawa kundi ang kilabutan, mandiri sa aking sarili, at umiyak nang umiyak. Nakapikit ako dahil ayaw kong makita ang pagmumukha ng demonyong 'to. Ayaw kong makita kung paano niya... muling kawawain ang sarili ko.

But I quickly open my eyes when I felt something sharp poking my stomach. It's his thing, and he's planning to put it inside of my mouth.

"Ambrielle, n-no!" I shouted in horror.

Gumamit siya ng malakas na puwersa upang ipasok iyon sa aking bibig. I can't even open my mouth but Ambrielle is being reckless. Patuloy sa pagbuhos ang aking luha, lalo na nang gumalaw siya. Dumagundong ang malakas niyang tawa, tuwang-tuwa sa nangyayari.

His hand landed on my neck. He chokes me as he keeps on pushing and pulling his thing inside of my mouth. And when he got satisfied, he positioned himself in front of me. I shouted loudly when he used a great force to push his thing inside of me. Sinasaktan niya ako habang ginagawa niya 'yon sa akin. His eyes were full of lust.

Wala na.

Wala na akong maintindihan sa nangyayari sa akin. Parang naging manhid ako sa oras na 'yon. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang luha ko ngunit hindi ko na ramdam. Ramdam ko ang unti-unting pagsuko ng aking katawan.

Sa oras na 'yon, lahat ng ginawa ko sa buong buhay ko ay nanumbalik sa aking isip. Pilit kong inaalala kung saan ba sa ginawa ko ang matindi ang sala upang parusahan ako ng gan'to. Karapat-dapat ba ako sa ganitong buhay? Hindi pa puwede sa akin ang sumaya? Gano'n na ba ako kalaki ang kasalanan ko para ganito ang gawin sa akin?

Dapat bang... ganito lagi? 'Yong gagamitin ako ng tao, sasaktan, at ipaparamdam sa akin na wala akong kuwenta? Tangina! Hindi pa ba sapat ang lahat ng pagtitiis ko? Tiniis ko lahat ng pananakit nila sa akin! Mapapisikal, emosyonal, at sekswal! Lahat 'yon ay tiniis ko! Lahat 'yon ay sinarili ko! Walang tumulong sa akin na lagpasan 'yon! Kaya tangina, bakit may panibago na naman?