Dess POV
I got up and went in Kairi room sne she was still sleep which saved me time to do what I had to do around the house
I heard the door downstairs open and which was weird because I thought East slept on the couch ....
I went downtown to check who it was to see East walked in and ofc he had pussy last night
Part of me wanted to just beat him up but the amount of hate he has for me right now I wouldn't want it more
"Uhh Abby said you called her to get Kairi she outside "He said
Without saying anything I softly got Kairi up and Abby took her with her
"You got a few minutes we need to talk?" East asked walking in the laundry
"Can it wait I'm trying to finish cleaning the house before Abby drop Kairi off" I said
"Dess please" He said seriously which almost gaved me hope that maybe... just maybe... he would want to work things out but I doubt it
"Ok hold on" I said
"I'll be upstairs "he said and left
Part of me wanted to just say no I don't wanna talk because I'm scared of what he's going to say now
The other part of me somehow is relieved we're clearing the air so at least I'll know where we stand
I cleaned everything and went upstairs to see him in his game
It was weird, the only time we'll ever be in the same room is if it's with Kairi
I sat on the bed and we just both stared at each other in silence for a foor 60 seconds
"East come on if you wanna talk I got shit to do" I said
"I can't be with you no more" He said
"I mean you made that perfectly clear with the divorce " I said
"No Dess you're not understanding me, I can't be with YOU no more , I want out of this relationship, it's a lot of things I put up with that you do but I don't see how I can move on from this" he said
"I can't bring up you cheating on me and I still stayed because then it'll look like I'm trying to play victim, as much as it hurts me to say this I can never stop loving you, you told me you hated me to my face and I still can't stop loving you " I shaked my head
"See there you go again, I told you I don't wanna be with you no more instead of hearing me out you trying to make me stay" he said aggravatedly
"I'm not trying to make you stay" I said
"STOP JUST STOP DESS, YOU COMPLAINED AL THESE YEARS OF HOW MUCH OF A CHEATER I AM NOW I AM FINALLY LETTING YOU THE FUCK GO AND YOU ACTING LIKE IT'S THE END IF THE WOLRD IF ANYTHING I'M SAVING YOU FROM HAVING TO CHEAT ON ME"He yelled
"I'm trying to figure out why you yelling when we're obviously just clearing the air "I said
"DESS I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU ANYMORE, EVERYTIME I LOOK AT YOU I SEE MY OPPS, I CAN'T STAND TO BE IN THE SAME ROOM
AS YOU WITHOUT THINKING OF PUTTING A BULLET THROUGH YO FUCKINF HEAD, YOU FUCKING HURT ME DAWG" He punched the wall
"Here" I said handing him the gun
"WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOING " He hissed
"GO AHEAD EAST, SINCE YOU HATE ME SO MUCH GO AHEAD I'M GIVING YOU A FREE PASS, GO AHEAD PUT A BULLET THROUGH MY FUCKING HEAD , GO AHEAD GET RID OF WHAT BROKE YOU EAST" I yelled
As hurt I was from hearing him say all this I didn't care I was just ready to leave everything behind
"BACK THE FUCK UP DESS YOU THE MOTHER OF MY CHILD" He yelled
"NO GO AHEAD KAIRI WILL FIND ANOTHER MOTHER BUT U CANT KEEP LIVING WITH THIS MUCH HATE IN YOUR HEART, I'M HELPING YOU GET RID OF IT, GO AHEAD EAST SHOOT ME, SHOOT ME PLEASE PLEASE SHOOT ME EAST" I yelled
He shot up a bullet through the wall almost close to me
"I'm right here dumbass" I hissed but still kind of terrified he shot right next to me
"I FUCKING HATE YOU DAWG"He screamed and left
I sat down and cried thinking about how much I'm not wanted in this life
Looking at the gun on the dresser everything just seemed so much better if I was dead
I grabbed the gun and point it at my head, Lord knows I do not want to be here, I'm hurt, people hate me, trauma caused me to do all this and now it's no more reason to live
As much as I wanna let off the shots Kairi is in the back if my head
I threw the gun on the floor and got on my knees
"GOD PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME LET GO, HELP ME STOP LOVING EAST, HELP ME HATE HIM TOO, HELP ME HAVE STRENGTH TO RAISE MY DAUGHTER, HELP ME LORD PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME, I HAVE NO MORE REASON PLEASE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO HAVE ANOTHER REASON PLEASEE" I yelled crying
"Dang gansta you can't be letting Yo door stay open lkke that someone gon catch you lacking" I heard Scrap said walking in
"SCRAP GET OUT" I yelled and it hurts to just scream at him like that, he didn't do anything to me but somehow I feel hurt by everyone
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Scrap POV
"Man come on you know I got you but don't be doing all this yelling I'm yo dawg remember get up Dess " he said
"I WANT TO DIEEEE" she cried
"The gun right there if you wanted to die you would've pulled the trigger gansta " I told her
"I CAN'T " She cried again
"Exactly you got a whole daughter stop thinking just because East leaving you, life is over, you a pretty ass female, a good mother, a good friend, and girlfriend no matter what East said " I told her and she leaned in and was about to kiss me
"Oh na Dess don't be on that" I quickly backed up
"Sorry" She cried
"It's cool you going through it" I sat on the bed beside her
"I just wanna be happy" She cried
"You will be man just give it time" I hugged her as she cried for a good hour or so
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Makayla POV
"Dream she deadass lied and said she had nothing going on with Hakeem and that he was dead " I told dream
"Ok bitch you acting like you're the one in her position, if anything East and Dess is the victim here... Dess lied, East hates her but they still have a child together and they're handling it better than you...."She said
"So you saying I'm wrong?" I asked
"Nah you not wrong you just doing too much' she said
"Get the fuck out my house Dream" I hissed
"Girl you can't be getting mad everytime someone tells you that you have no business being this mad when it's DESS SITUATION WITH EAST NOT YOURS!!!"She said
"Of course Jayda told you what happen, fake ass hoes ion even know why I fuck with y'all snake asses anyways"I said angerly
It's like ok Dess has her own reason to be sad too but what about me? Like everyone just sees her as just a victim
"Listen Makayla I talked to Dess on the phone that girl is going through it so you're not really the top thing on her mind right now " Dream said
"Get out Dream" I said and slammed the door
This is fucking beyond me
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