Rogue Wars Online

Chapter Sixty-Two: A New Challenge

The loneliness it brings is horrible. The reality that I would never be able to hold or talk to this person, because what's gone and lost would never come back anymore.

"Your hands are cursed with death."

Natigilan ako nang marinig ang boses na 'yon. Napalingon ako't nakita si Marcella sa dating pwesto niya, arms crossed and face blank. So... she wasn't just any illusion or reflection. Talaga ngang nakatayo siya diyan.

Pero, kung kanina pa siya, bakit hindi niya man lang tinulungan si Caspian?

"After killing Depore, you killed another? You are very cruel, Finn."

Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. "Did not kill anyone."

"But you did. A dead Caspian is in your arms, right?"

"Not what happened. Alam mo 'yon."

Marcella raised a brow. Kinabahan ako sa naiisip niya o gagawin. Without solid evidence or even a credible witness, words can be twisted into any shape.

"Do I... really? Who would they believe when I say you were the culprit? Ikaw, na hindi nila masyadong kilala, o ako, na tinitingala ng lahat?"

Was the world the cruel one? Or was it the people around me, tainted with sins, who bring cruelty?

Do they think death is a mere child play? That grief is just its attachment and can be easily treated?

Mahina akong natawa sa audacity ng dalawang babae sa buhay ko, na kung makaasta ay kinuha ko sa kanila ang lahat. How dare they accuse me of stealing what's theirs or never feeling pain when they've never lost anything before?

Their fear is the possibility of losing something, while all I want is to stop losing everything.

Marahan kong ibinaba ang katawan ni Caspian. I couldn't help but see Depore in the same position - cold and lifeless for someone else's greed. Ikinuyom ko ang kamao at hinarap si Marcella.

My heart was conflicted - there was pain, loneliness, and guilt. But the anger... the anger that I have complete control with is starting to course up through me. Hindi ko talaga sila maintindihan kahit anong pilit ko. Wala naman akong pakialam kung sa'kin sila magalit o ako ang pagbuhatan nila nito, but to let someone else pay a non-existing debt.

Sino ba talaga sila sa tingin nila na hindi nila kaya ang konting sakit?

"So... trap?" nakangiti kong tanong jay Marcella. "You're the witness. I'm the murderer. After Depore's death, no one will believe me."

"I know you're smart and you didn't disappoint me. That's right. It is a perfect plan." Marcella tilted her head. "I despise these kind of things, but I didn't get my hand dirty. I would never kill a person... but circumstances have changed and I have no choice but to watch it."

I've already expected that, but hearing the confirmation is still a bit surprising. Paano nila kayang gawin 'to? Marcella may have wanted to remain human by not killing someone, but not helping is just the same sin, right? Hindi naman kailangan na ikaw talaga ang sumaksak para sabihing ikaw ang pumatay.

"You did all this..." I said in a low, cold voice. "All for what?"

Ano pa ba ang mas importante sa buhay ng isang tao?