Forbidden Desire

Chapter 30

Nang humagugol ito ay ramdam ko ang pagsikip ng dibdib ko. "Sorry for what I did. Gagawin ko lahat ng gusto mong gawin ko para mapatawad mo ako."

Sa sinabi niya, dahan-dahan kong dinilat ang mga mata ko. "Lahat gagawin mo?"

I saw him stunned. "Y-you're awake."

"Tama ba ang narinig ko? Gagawin mo ang lahat para sa kapatawaran ko?" mahinang tanong ko.

He nodded and kissed my hand. "Yes, Kitty. Anything."

"Ipawalang bisa mo ang kasal natin," I said; trying not to let my voice crack. "I want an annulment, Lace."

Pain stabbed my chest the moment I saw tears fell on his cheeks. "N-no... Gagawin ko ang lahat, 'wag lang 'yan."

Pagod akong ngumiti. "Ayoko ng masaktan dahil sa 'yo, Lace. K-kung totoo man lahat ng sinabi mo, wala na akong pakialam. Your reasons didn't justify your actions. You kissed my mom and you do things-"

"Baby, we didn't." May hinugot ito sa kanyang bulsa at pinakita sa 'kin. A syringe. "I would use this everytime she tried to kiss me. You know how much I hate it when someone's trying to touch me. Please, believe me."

"Mom said it herself. You did extraordinary things," I said and the thought itself broke me into pieces.

"It's her hallucination." He squeezed my hand. "She had a Borderline Personality Disorder and Obsessive Love Disorder. She also hallucinates things that aren't true."

Nakaramdam ako ng pagtataka ngunit hindi ko ito pinahalata. "How did you know that?"

"Your dad. He told me that." Yumuko ito habang hawak ang kamay ko. I saw his shoulders shaking. "Please, Kitty. 'Wag mo 'kong iwan."

Umiwas ako ng tingin dito. I pulled my hand from his hold and I felt a pang of pain on my chest. "Three days from now, an annulment paper will arrive at your office. Kung gusto mong patawarin kita, pirmahan mo 'yun at huwag ka na magpakita sa 'kin. Let's move forward and end everything here. Because if you really love me, you would think of ways to have me back without hurting me.

"Siguro rin isa na itong senyales na hindi talaga tayo pwede." Hot tear rolled down my cheeks as I took a deep breath. "Oras na para tapusin lahat ng 'to, Lace. Pirmahan mo ang annulment paper at hayaan na nating maging malaya ang sarili mula sa isa't-isa. Your reasons can't change my mind, Leslie. Even if you explain to me a hundred times."

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"Miss Keith, may gustong kumausap sa 'yo." Gemma knocked on the door.

Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga. "I'm busy, Gemma. Kung wala siyang appointment, send the person out."

It's been a week since I last saw him. Simula nang lumabas ako ng ospital ay wala na siyang paramdam. Hindi na rin sila umuuwi ng mansion ni mommy.

I'm hurt and broken at the moment. Pero pilit kong iniisip na tama ang ginawa ko. That decision is only to set the both of us free. Inaamin kong isang linggo ko rin iniisip ang mga narinig kong rason sa kanya.

Hindi ako naniniwalang may sakit si mommy. If she has, then dad should've submitted her to a phychiatric. That's funny. Wala na akong tiwala sa kanya.

"Miss Keith..." Bumukas ang pintuan at sumilip si Gemma. "They are persistent po. Gusto ka raw pong makausap."

Napahugot ako ng malalim na hininga at tinanguhan si Gemma. "Let them in."

Tumayo ako at nagtungo sa pang-isahang sofa. Hindi ko kilala kung sino man itong nais akong makausap. But I feel like there's something in me na gusto ko itong kausapin.