Destined To A Star | SaTzu

sixty-three

A beautiful beginning with a painful goodbye.

I miss waking up with the person I love the most. I miss you, your goodmorning with a genuine smile.

I miss the old us, our conversation, your voice, your smile, the closeness we had before, and you.

I miss you a lot.

I know we're far from each other but I just want you to know that you owned me. We're far from each other, I don't know where you are right now and how are you doing. It's been a months but you still own my heart and no one can ever take away your place. You will always here inside of my heart forever and I hope one day, that one day will definitely come for both of us. I'll never get tired of waiting for the unknown and uncertainty time with you.

Maybe we're far from each other, but distance won't stop me from loving you. I don't care about the distance. It's my love for you that matters.

I can't erase you out of my life. I love you so much.

After everything, I still love you.

Sana went outside. She told her friends. She said she's fine. She's smiling and laughing. But deep inside her, she's broken, tired emotionally and in pain.

She still managed to smile, but behind those sweet smiles, there is a bitter sadness that no one can ever see and feel. Sana is literally a great pretender.

She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tells a different story.

So sick of pretending that everything is alright because it's not. It's so hard to act like you doesn't care and affected anymore, but deep inside you your dying, your bleeding. You're totally breathless because of the pain.

She was walking alone until her foot brought her to Tennoji park.

But when she was walking, she started to feel a heavy weight on her chest. The loneliness hit her. Her former favorite place, that's how it is and nothing has changed. Whenever she was sad, she always went there.

Somehow she lost her stress, but something was missing. No someone was missing. She sat down on the chair near to it thinking of something, well let's just say someone.

She's enjoying alone but she feels incomplete. She knows that deep inside of her that someone or something is missing on her.

After looking at the beautiful scenery, she thought of eating first. She went to street foods where she and Tzuyu also went there. They used to have fun, but now. You can only see the smiles on her lips once. She did not know why she had not been get used to this kind of situations. She was hurt again. She couldn't quite figure out why she was always hurting like this. Did she do something wrong in her past life so this is what is happening to her?

She sighed and ordered some Yakitori and eat it. While eating she saw some Takoyaki in the stall. She remembered Tzuyu insisting her to take a bite on it. She smiled at her own thoughts.

Meanwhile some couple brought some Takoyaki. The foreigner was about to eat the Takoyaki when the Japanese girl stops her.

"Be careful, do not burn your tounge."The Japanese girl said as the foreigner gave it a blow before he started to eat

That was exactly what she said to Tzuyu that time. It made her missed Tzuyu even more. She doesn't know but the simple things she sees around, everything on that place, remind her of Tzuyu.

Someone suddenly tapped her shoulder.

"Satang."Momo said as Sana turn her head behind her back

"Hey!."Sana said as she take a last look to the couple

"What are you looking at?."Mina asked, also looking at the direction that she is looking

"Nothing, it's just.. They are sweet."Sana said with a smile, the smile that you can't see through her eyes

"To be honest we stalked you."Mina honestly said

"Eh? Why though?."Sana ask raising her eyebrows

"It's just we want to make sure that you're doing fine."Mina said while rubbing her temple

"Yeah! but we lost you."Momo said with an awkward smile

"And it's your fault."Mina said glaring at her

"Wow so it's my fault now? Who is the one texting with her phone while were hiding on the tree? Isn't me?."Momo ask with her arms crossed, Sana just look at them in confusion

"Well if you just didn't make your attention to me we will never lost her!!."Mina defended herself

"Girls! girls! Stop with that at least now you find me. Let's just have some fun eating some foods here. I came here because I'm hungry!."Sana said taking some money from her wallet

"Why you went here? And why not in the nearest restaurant near your house?."Mina asked, Sana just looked somewhere and tried to answer

"This is the place that Tzuyu and I went to when we were on a vacation that time."Sana said trying to sound fine

"Sorry for asking."Mina apologize while taking her hands gaving it a light squeeze

"But why tho? I mean why you choose this kind of place? Why the place where you have a memories together? Aren't you here to move on with her?."Momo said as Mina elbowed her with a big eyes
"Why? I'm just saying? Because if she wants to move on, she has to do things that won't remind her of Tzuyu."Momo explained, Sana just sighed and lowerd down her head

"Sorry it's just my foot brings me here, I didn’t even realize that I had been to the places that Tzuyu and I had been to before."Sana said, Momo shook her head

"Places? So you went to that places? Come on Sana! Yes, were here to help you move on, but I hope you can also help yourself. Because you really can't move on from that if that's what you're doing. You said you want to erase her out of your mind and in your heart but why are you doing this? You even go to places that you and her have a memories together!!."Momo said as Mina held her arms trying to stop her

"Momo chan please... calm down yourself."Mina said, Momo sighed and take a look at Sana's direction

"I'm sorry, All I want is for you not to get hurt. You are my friend, you are our friend. We cared for you."Momo said as Sana gave her a tight embrace

"I'm sorry for being stubborn."Sana said as she parted from the hug

"No more misunderstanding thingy! Let's eat somewhere, my treat!."Mina said in a cheerful tone

"But who is the person you texted though?."Sana suddenly ask out of nowhere which made Mina blushed

"That's... Only uhh.. Ch.. Chaeng."Mina shyly said

"Woahhhh I smell a comeback."Momo said with a teasing smirk

"Shut up and keep on walking!!."Mina yelled in a tiny voice as her two friends just walked while laughing with her