Creating The Real Us

Chapter 28

Miss Raymond

I sighed as I checked my phone again.

Nothing

I have been waiting for Leonard's call since yesterday.

At school yesterday, we had an argument.

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"Hey love" Leonard walked into my office.

"You are lucky I was given a personal office if not we would be in trouble" I chided

"I don't mind" he stared at me

I ignored it and went on with my work

"Okay what's wrong" he asked

"Nothing"

"It's not nothing. You're acting different" he pushed

"How do I act? I don't see any difference"

"Why are you sounding cold to me" he inquired

"I don't understand, I just took a cup of hot tea, I shouldn't sound cold"

"Alexa I'm being serious right now"

"And I'm also being serious. By the way it's Miss Raymond to you when we are at school"

"But we are alone!" He emphasized on the alone

"We are still at school"

"So we are no longer on the first name basis is that it?"

"Look Leonard I'm busy. Can you please excuse yourself" I said, not looking up from what I was doing.

There was a pregnant pause

"Fine. I'll call you" he walked out and I'm surprised he didn't slam the door behind him.

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So here I am waiting for his call.

I feel like I'm just kidding myself because personally if anyone had treated me the way I did to him and then told me he would call me, I wouldn't believe.

But this is me, sitting on the couch staring intensely at my phone and hoping his call would come in.

The truth is, I was jealous.

I saw him smiling at other girls and I got mad.

I was mad because other girls could make him smile

I was mad because I was older than him

I was mad because I know we'd be in trouble if our relationship gets out

I was mad because people wouldn't approve of us

I was mad because I wasn't one of those girls he was smiling at

I was mad because I can't shout and show everyone that he's mine

I was mad because I couldn't take  him from those girls because it would raise suspicions

I was mad because there is a huge probability that when he graduates we won't see each other again.

I was mad because he might end up falling in love with someone that isn't me

I was mad because his entire future might be with someone else

I was mad because I am already in love with him and it's going to lead to my doom.

There's a lot of things I can do to stop this but I just don't want to.