Another Timezone

twenty two

Zoellas POV

I'm standing up. My hand floating on a hospital bed. As I look down I see a lifeless body unconscious with three IVs in her arm. I am that body next to me. I look around. The lights seem so bright. Am I dying?

I can't see well. My eye sight is spotty from the brightness. I can hear people talking, though it is faint, as if they are whispering. I listen as hard as I can. "Really?" I hear a whisper, one I know. It was Ashton. Why am I in this bed, why is Ashton here? What's going on.

I move my hand along the bed, walking, as I take a few steps, the whispering sounds like shouting. I step back, cupping my ears in pain. I sit where I stopped. It's as if they are talking with me, though they are not.

A deep voice explains; "The supposed anxiety attack had led to Zoella losing a massive amount of liquids, by throwing up. And there is no easy way or subtle way to tell you, but the amount of liquid lost caused her body to begin to shut down and there seemed to be a lack of nutrients. Or in other words, she seems to have not been eating, helping this to occur. She is in a coma. It could last a few days or weeks, but only time can tell, I'm sorry." As the word coma is let out of his lips, I heard moans of sorrow, and I can tell that my dad is crying, ashton as well. And someone had collapsed crying, 'no, no, no' she said. It was Skyler. And I hear the sound of her moms voice trying to comfort her.

I stand up, staring at myself, why am I out here and not in there, I'm awake. I'm not in a coma. I walk over and sit in the seat, taking a deep breath. When someone walks in, I look over, it's Ashton. His face flush and tears stain his cheeks. I run over to hug him, but all that happens is I go through him. As if I'm a ghost. And I don't exist.

He sits in the chair next to my bed and grabs my hand, well, my bodies hand. He gulps, "You know Zoe. They said distance was the worst, they lied. This is the worst. Things like this. Scaring me to the point of thinking, what if I lose my best friend? You know, you would think Sky's a wreck, but I think I have her beat... I need you to come back. Soon. And when you do, when you wake up, I'll be here. And if you don't want me here.. or anything. I will do what you want. I will do that for you Zoella. I will leave you if you think that's the best option. I hope you don't. But I promise. I will do whatever it takes. I love you Zoella. I love you." Tears go down his face as he places a soft kiss on the hand.

"I LOVE YOU ASHTON. IM RIGHT HERE. WHY CANT YOU SEE ME. I AM AWAKE DAMMIT. ASHTON PLEASE. LISTEN TO ME. I NEED YOU. PLEASE. PLEASE. Ashton.. please.." I collapse after yelling, trying to get him to hear me. Which though he doesn't. I wish he did... I didn't want to hear what he just promised me. I don't want that. And what about Skyler? I've destroyed so many people as I slowly destroyed myself..