Nerd,Dork,Geek

Geek: Sophia

        After the writing class I decide to ride by my house and see if my parents are still yelling at each other.

        I jump on my bike and say bye to Emma and Amy and head towards my old house when I get I few

houses away from my house I see the ambulance and I peddle faster then I see my house or rather I

don't see it because it has burned all the way down. I stop next to the ambulance and see them but my

mother in the back of the it and close the doors. I run to it and start banging on the doors until a

policeman tells me to stop and I say " but that's my mother" the policeman just walks away as if he

hadn't heard me. I watch the ambulance drive away and I sink to the dew covered grass and look of in

the distance, I would cry but I keep it in I bind it together and sit on the ground until I can't see any

more. I stand up and I walk over to my bike and ride away if you looked at me you would think that I was

numb to the pain but actually the pain is tearing away at my heart slowly, and its hurts so bad I want to

scream  but can't, no sound will come out of me so when I get to Emma's I walk to her room and flop on

to the air mattress and don't move even though Amy and Emma are staring at me.

                _____________________   A week later

        I wake up at four ( the usual time I wake up these days ) I go to the kitchen and find something to eat and

go back to Emma's room and try to sleep but I just have nightmares. 

        I'm in my house while its burning the smoke is suffocating and I can see the people outside and

there screaming at me to get out but I can't I can't move all I can do is sit so that's what I do. The fire

comes right up to me and I reach out towards it and as soon as I touch the fire it vanishes. Instead of

being my house anymore I'm in complete darkness and and I see Amy and Emma waving at me and

then they start to shine brighter and brighter until I can't look at them anymore.  Then they turn into

stars. I have a choice I could not be able to see and go become a star or I could be able to see but get

suffocated with being lonely for the rest of my life. I start heading towards the darkness screaming.

 Blood starts coming out of my legs,  scars start appearing on my arms and I get extremely skinny,

unhealthy skinny. I wan't to go back to the stars I don't want to be like this, but its to late and there's no

going back so I start to scream and cry and then I wake up. 

        I'm still crying and screaming tears are streaming down my face and Emma is by my side shushing

me and stroking my hair I stop screaming and Emma's mom comes in and sits on Emma's bed.

I'm still crying and taking deep breathes I'm looking at my arms to make sure that there arern't any scars

on them. After I stop crying Emma's mom says "so the hospital called and said that your mother is alive I

jump up and look bewildered at Emma's mom she tells me to get dressed and in a minute I'm ready to

go. When I get to the hospital I run inside and and ask the lady at the front desk were to find to her my

mother " room 108" she says I run into the elevator and I run all the way until I get right up to the door.

        I slowly put my hand on the handle and turn it and walk in. I'm scared of what I'm staring at my mother is

a pale white and when she she sees me she reaches her arm out and its shaking she starts to cry but

she stops because it takes to much effort I walk over to her and lay my head on her shoulder and cry

the tears I was afraid to cry at my house my mother strokes my hair and comforts me even though we

both know that she is almost gone. In a hoarse she says " I love you".

        I look into her lovely green eyes and I look at her beautifully face that I will never see again then as if a

light switch goes off, the wonderful spark of life in her eyes flickers out. I bend down to her ear kiss her

and whisper "I love you too" tears are streaming down my face as I am taken away by the nurses

I cry as I peddle home and I cry for two days straight and I don't stop and as if nothing could be clearer I

realize that it wans't my Parents I hated it was my dad the way he beat us the way he screamed I

couldn't take it I took my hatred out on both parents and now my my only true parent who loved me is

gone and I'm forever in the dark.