This song makes me poetic.
It also makes me think of deaths. Specifically children dying.
My cousin was killed in a car accident, he was hit by a drunk driver, and he was twelve. his friend who was around the same age also died. I never met him. I don't have any memories of him, but my mom does, and she tells me about him.
It also makes me think about my Uncle John, who I also never met. He was in his twenties, not a child, but still. He was my mom's brother, and they were pretty much best friends, I wish I could meet him.
My mom's best friend as an adult, had leukemia, which turned into cancer. She and her husband weren't able to have children, but she always wanted kids. She was awesome. She had goats and gave us goat milk. She grew raspberries and played with us on the swings in her backyard.
My grandpa on my dad's side died in 2018, and I miss him so, so, much. He loved cheesy breakfasts and going out to restaurants. We had a funeral for him in Idaho, and all my family came. It was good to see them. There was viewing. That was the worst part. My grandma, his wife, is still alive. So that's good.
My other grandpa died the day after my eighth birthday, and I don't remember if I got any presents. I know I had a cake. I don't know what flavor of if it had a picture on the front. I don't know who was there. I know that I didn't have a party. We were on a trip, in a town in Alaska called Wrangle with the volley ball team, my dad was the coach. My mom got a call from this kid who found my grandpa's body. We were at a volley ball game, I didn't know why my mom was crying. We learned soon after.
There was a guy in our church, he had been one of my dad's students before he graduated, he was dating our good friend, but I didn't really know him well. he must have been in his twenties, like my Uncle John. And like my Uncle John, he got in a car crash. he died.
I hate death. but it's necessary, I guess.
I know this is silly compared to all these very important people mentioned before, but it hurts when book characters die. It really does. Maybe because it reminds my of these people.
Sorry this chapter is so depressing. It's just some thoughts I've been having.
Okay, bye everyone, love y'all <3
