Mr. "Nice Guy" (Sangwoo x Reader)

chapter 16

A/N: it's been a while...
This chapter isn't grammar or spelling checked so sorry if there are some mistakes. I just kinda wanted to get this out, unfortunately due to issues in my personal life I haven't really been able to sit down and write this for a while.
Hope you enjoy. i should get chapter 17 out by the end of the week, If I don't I apologize.
TW: Rape

It was late when you woke up you could tell because you could see the setting sun streaming through the curtains. Another thing you were unfortunately aware of was that Sangwoo was clinging to you. You Didn't even want to look at his face. You were disgusted by him. He killed your best friend which diminished any slight feeling you had towards him. Trying to move as little as possible you closed your eyes. Go back to sleep, go back to sleep you chanted in your head. It was the only way you wanted to spend your time as it let you out of the harsh reality you live In. It would also distract you from the Image of Saki's rotting corpse sitting in the basement.

"Good morning" you heard Sangwoo chuckle. Your body froze from both fear and anger, he was the last person on earth you wanted to talk to right now. You especially didn't want to hear his "witty" banter. "What do you want?" You mumbled through gritted teeth. You felt Sangwoo lean in closer to you, you could feel his hot breath on your neck. "You~" he whispered seductively in your ear. Electricity surged through your body. In all honesty, you were confused as to whether you were angry or turned on. Obviously, you went with anger as there was no doubt in your mind that you would never feel for the monster of a man that lay in front of you.

For once courage rose over your fear, you were going to speak your opinion to the man you hated most. "I can't do this any more" you snapped sitting up. "I am sick and tired of the way you treat me and I am done" It felt amazing to finally speak your mind but you couldn't stop the wave of panic and regret that started to come over you. "What?" His words were quieter than they had ever been but they came out with a slight chuckle. This made you slightly worried. However, you were still riding the adrenaline high so you did something that you never would usually do. “You heard me” you raised your voice.

You provoked the bear…

You watched as Sangwoo got up and turned his back to you. Was he going to hit you, kill you, lock you up in the basement. You honestly Weren't sure. No longer were you courageous, you were scared, no, terrified of what could happen next. His large figure seemed to tower over you, making you shrink into the corner. You wanted to go back to the days where you Y/n, the girl who faked all of her emotions as it was now too hard for you to handle. 

"I love you Y/n" his voice was bitter like blood. But you couldn't help but feel some sincerity to the statement. Maybe this was his way of showing affection, killing everyone around you till you could only look at him. It seemed rather selfish. "Why don't you love me?" His voice was still quiet, but a slight laugh could be heard at the end of the sentence. Maybe if he sounded sad it would have made you feel bad for him. Maybe. But the way he spoke to you right now made him seem insane. You could only wonder what happened to the "Mr. Nice guy" act. In all honesty you wanted it back.

"I did everything for you!" His voice was no longer low, it was now a loud bark. If anyone heard him they would have called the police, but of course there was no one around. No one to save you. He had turned around and his eyes bore hundreds of emotions all at once. It seemed that you weren't the only one who had been stripped of their mask.

What he was saying was true, he did everything to get you, to have you to himself. You had to applaud his efforts. But that didn't make his actions any more reasonable. "Why won't you love me back?" This time Sangwoo sounded broken, sad. You hated it. You knew he was manipulating you but you couldn't help but feel guilt. It made you question why you didn't love him back. But you know why you don't, you can't love him back. His little mind games drove you insane. Closing your eyes you tried to focus, focus on anything else but Sangwoo. But you simply couldn't, he was stuck in your head like a song on repeat.

Sangwoo's Sad footsteps into the hall were the only thing that managed to make your eyes snap wide open. He was leaving, but where was he going? Something in your heart told you to follow him, you didn't listen to your heart, you stuck with your head. You weren't going to follow him around like a little puppy, that would only feed his massive ego. However, they curiosity ate  you up inside. Maybe you should have let curiosity take over.

He was gone for hours, you could have left, but you didn't. Why? Well what did you have left to go back to really. Nothing. You weren't scared of him catching you escaping you could have gone but you didn't. It was like he conditioned you, trained you like a lap dog, at least that's what he thought.

Even though you hated Sangwoo you couldn't wait for him to get back, the loneliness was driving you insane. It was also the fact that he could have done something stupid or replace you. Let you go, drop you off at the edge of the road. That would be for the best though right? But why did it feel like it wasn't?. Maybe you needed him.

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Sangwoo arrived back at the early hours of the morning, although you didn't want to admit it you were starting to get worried about where he had gotten too. You had spent the whole time he was staring at a blank wall. Some would say it was a foolish misuse of time but what else was there to do.

When you heard the front door slam open you didn't go to meet him, you simply stayed put. It seemed like he was coming to you as you could hear him stumbling up the stairs. His loud stumbling lead you to believe he was likely drunk. You had never seen him drunk and you weren't sure you ever wanted to.

Unfortunately it wasn't long till he managed to find his way into the room you were currently in. You hoped he would knock himself unconscious on the way there, but you weren't that lucky. You felt him flop onto the bed next to you. Maybe he'll fall asleep you though, but sadly that was not the case. Sangwoo slipped his hand up the shirt you were wearing, grazing his palm against your stomach. "You know… you're really hot." His speech was slightly slurred but that didn't stop you from shivering slightly as his hot breath hit the back of your neck. Yep, he's drunk you thought as you try to mentally prepare yourself for what was about to happen next.

You could feel Sangwoo's  bulge press against you  as he sucked at your neck. He was probably leaving yet another line of impossible to hide hickeys to show dominance or something stupid like that  . He was much stronger than you so you knew there was no way of getting out of what was happening.  The only thing that made you question everything was the fact that you couldn't smell alcohol. The only thing you could smell was faint cigarette smoke and Cologne.

Within no time he was on top of you thrusting with all his might. You moaned slightly as he thrusted into you and you hated it. You hated him, you hated everything. You would have thought that being in a drunken state would have meant he couldn't pound you as hard as usual.but you were proved wrong in fact he was pounding you harder than usual. 

You were sweating and crying when you reached your climax. Sangwoo's sloppy kisses didn't calm your tears, they made them worse. They helped you to figure out he was sober, he was only pretending to be drunk.but why? So he could pound you into oblivion without consent. He finished inside you. Not even thinking of the consequences, he never did. Of course you did, but most of the time you couldn't bear to think about them.

There was a moment of silence before Sangwoo spoke; "you know I'm not actually drunk". You knew the whole time  but for some reason, you weren't mad, just disappointed. "Why, Why would you lie?" You asked, sorrow In your voice. "Because I love you" the ame excuse again you thought. At this point you didn't believe in love. "and I wanted you to love me too." The second part was strange but familiar, you were aware that everything he did was to make you love him. But the things he did were always morally wrong. You sighed. Maybe I should accept him
, You thought, because maybe then he'd stop.

Play along, play along, you told yourself. So that's what you did,you snuggled into his chest and tried to fall asleep. The last thing though that crossed your mind before you fell asleep was…

I hate you with all my guts, yet I play your games like I'm in love.