Phoenix

chapter seven

Present day.....  

I didn't know how to react, when Bruce offered me a ride, in front of Kyle, I really wanted to go with Kyle but I knew Bruce didn't like kyle one bit, I didn't know why.
Since kyle was cool with it, I went with Bruce.
"You should talk to him"he said as he turned on his engine.
I didn't have the strength to talk about jason , it was bad enough that I had to attend a party.
"I Don't want to"I mumbled
"Why"
"Because I have nothing to say to him" I said honestly.
"But you have questions to ask"he smiled.
"What happens in his life is none of my concern"
"I tried to find you"he was changing the topic and I was relieved, I did have a question for Jason but I wasn't going to ask because it's none of my business.
"How long" I finally said
"I did find you, but the girl said you took a flight out of city and she said you weren't coming back"
"I stayed with Laura for just three months, so you searched for me for three months"I was just shocked, I didn't know he cared about me that much, I didn't know what to say.
"Yeah Laura was her name"
"Just you"I asked
"Yeah"he whispered like he was ashamed of Jason.
"I should have known, he never cared"I shook my head disappointed
" he cares about you now"
I didn't notice that we had already reached my destination.
I just found out that the man I use to love, didn't bother searching for me when I ran away.
"I have to go, thanks for the ride"I came down and didn't bother turning to see if he had something else to say.
I went to my room and I cried not because of Jason but because I realized how stupid I was, I consoled myself all those years because I thought I was punishing him, I thought he loved me and me being away killed him. But it wasn't like that, he never cared to even look for me.
What did he want to tell me, that he had moved on, he's sorry for the pain he put me through.
I didn't even want to know, thinking about it made my chest hurt.
Kyle came in and sat next to me.
He said nothing just held me while I cried my eyes out.
"I ruined my life"I mumbled.
"You're doing great"he whispered
"I was doing great"
"Life is full of shit,on the bright side you met me"he joked,
"Yeah, am lucky"and I closed my eyes.