I got the taste of what pleasure feels like, but I never knew how fear lurks in the other side of zenith.
Mikaiela Sasha Gismondi's story ♡
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|2021|
"Imagine being a psychiatrist and you died cause of suicide? ni hindi ko manlang sya napigilan" I hugged him tightly. He is crying right now, akala ko talaga okay lang na tanungin ko sya.
"It's never your fault." I whispered as he started crying.
We never knew how much a person suffers unless they actually inhibit their signs privately. This is why I always think about mental health. Hindi ko kayang sumuko kasi kung sumuko ako, alam kong domino effect yun sa aming magkakaibigan.
After a while, tumahan naman sya at inistart nya ulit yung sasakyan. It's good na hindi sya naghesitate mag-open up sa akin. I am kinda comfortable towards him.
"My grandfather died too" sabi ko sakaniya.
"I figured that out the first time we met, you had a twin sister, right?" tanong niya sakin ng may sincerity. I looked at him and smiled, hindi naman siguro ako masasaktan kung ioopen ko.
"My parents never expected twins. Kaya biased sila sa kapatid ko, yung lolo ko lang talaga kakampi ko. Pero he died, I don't know kung anong dahilan ng pagkamatay niya since hindi ako pinayagan sa burol o libing manlang. My sister used her influence on my parents to make me look like I'm the bad guy. But I'm over it na, I even changed my given name para di na connected names namin - since may asawa naman na siya" at first I thought na I would burst out into tears pero hindi.
"You're brave enough to get out of that set up" I smiled as he hold my hand.
Nasa kanto palang kami ng pupuntahan namin, tinigil na ni Theo yung sasakyan. He got out of his car and opened the door for me. Aalisin ko na sana yung seatbelt pero pinigilan niya ako.
"I'm gonna blindfold you first" nagtaka ako sa pinagsasabi niya.
"Theo anong katarantaduhan nanaman ba to?" tanong ko habang inaayos niya yung blindfold sa ulo ko. Career na career pagiging sweet Theo ha?
"You have to see this Sasha, trust me babe. You're gonna love it" inakay naman ako ni Theo pababa ng sasakyan.
Kabadong kabado ako habang naglalakad. Nakaramdam ako ng damo sa paa ko, nasaan kami? Kung gusto niya ako tikman sa damuhan, papayag naman ako sa pinas eh. Bat kailangan pa nya akong dalhin dito sa Taiwan para barurutin lang sa damuhan?
"Stop biting you lips Sasha, I might forget this thing that we're doing cause I'm gonna do you instead" sabi ni Theo habang hawak ang balakang ko. Sobrang init ng bulong niya, parang may naglalarong kuryente sa likod ko.
Tinanggal ni Theo yung blindfold ko and to my surprise, this was the most beautiful thing that I have seen in my entire life.
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It was almost sunset and we are in a field of sunflowers. It's yellow everywhere, ang sarap sa mata. I was looking at him and he was smiling at me. This never felt so peaceful. I cupped his face and kissed him as the sun sets slowly. We kissed until we lost our breaths, I was smiling so wide.
"How did you know that I love these?" I asked Theo with amazement. Hindi ko kasi talaga inopen sakaniya pagiging fond ko sa color yellow.
"That's easy, I saw your office. It was full of paintings and sunflowers. I immediately thought about this, you deserve this rest" sabi nya habang akbay akbay ako.
I have never felt security in a man's warmth ever since my grandpa died. And now that I am feeling it again, hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. I'm just gonna enjoy the moment now.
