Am I gay? Do I like girls now? Do I like Josie?
What if I do? What does that mean for me and Carson? I like him too. I liked him a lot longer than I've liked Josie. He's sweet and caring, and cool. He's basically my dream guy. Could I really just give him up after waiting this long?
What do I do?
Josie you idiot, why did you have to kiss me?
When I finish my food I take my plate to the sink where Josie is almost done doing dishes.
"I can do the rest." I offer.
"I got it," she takes the plate from me.
"I'm gonna go wash up," I say.
"k," she continues washing dishes.
I frown before walking off.
Pull it together Kat. You can't start falling apart now. So long as no one finds out what I am doing I can keep experimenting until I know for sure what I want. Josie's cool with it. So no big deal right?
As I am drying off my face my phone beeps.
A text from Carson.
'Hey, what are you doing today? You didn't answer my text last night so I assumed you must have fallen asleep early. Wanna hang out today?'
I bite my lip and stare at the screen.
Before I can respond Josie comes up behind me and takes the phone out of my hands.
"Hey!" I complain.
"Today is my day. I'm going to give you a taste of what you are missing out on. Of what we could have if we were really together." She says.
I eye her.
She looks at my texts and responds for me before handing me back the phone.
It reads, 'Can't today, sorry. I promised Josie we'd hang out. You know how she is. I'll text you later, okay?'
"Okay?" Josie asks.
I look up at her.
"Okay," I say softly.
She smiles. A smile so sweet and genuine it tears me apart.
I don't want to break her heart.
Carson responds back with, 'Okay, cool. I understand. Friends first. Catcha later, maybe we can go for a walk tonight. I'll text you later.'
I feel sick to my stomach. What I am doing is wrong, but I don't know what to do. I'm so confused.
I stare at my phone in worry.
Josie caresses my cheek and I look up at her. I feel my heart skip a beat as our eyes meet. She doesn't say anything, just gently caresses my cheek. I lean up and kiss her then. She kisses me back softly.
I feel all weird inside.
I've never felt like this before.
This feeling, it's almost hypnotic. Addictive. I can't get enough of it.
"Get dressed, I have plans for us today." She says as she pulls back.
"What kind of plans?" I ask.
"You'll see my cute little kitten," she ruffles my hair.
"You are not calling me that." I glare at her.
She laughs.
"Just go get dressed," I push her away.
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