Caged (forthbeam)

6: Panic attack

It's been two days since Beam told them about his dead brother. The topic was now avoided in the house at any cost. Everything was normal, Beam busy himself in his work. But one person was in misery, Park. He was silently crying himself in his room. How come he never knows that his first love died years ago? Yes, Park secretly loved his best friend. But Tharn was not into guys. He confessed his love towards his best friend on graduation day which result Tharn to hate him. Tharn was homophobic. He called him names and warned him to not get close with his little brother which is Beam. He didn't wanted Beam to be near a shadow of Park. After that heartbreak, Park moved to US, where he meets Lam. Lam was his psychiatric because he was suffering from depression. Lam helped him. He understood him. He helped Park to move on from his first love. Eventually they fell in love with each other.

But he was regretting one thing. He should have keeps tab on Beam. Beam was a little brother for him, whom he adored and loved so much. But he didn't. It was hunting him. The thought of Beam living with his monster father all these years without his brother was eating him from inside. He remembered how Beam's father used to hurt him. One time, Tharn was late because his bike was punctured, he was only two hours late. But when he got home, he saw his father chocking Beam with his hands in a drunken state. He hurriedly detached his father from his brother. But he was little late. Beam was unconscious and his heart beat was really slow. Tharn panicked and took him to hospital. Beam nearly died that day. From then on, park and Tharn made sure to not leave Beam alone, even for a moment with his father. But who was there to save him when Tharn died?

Park cried thinking it was his fault but Lam told him, it was not. It was not anyone's fault but Beam's father. Lam suggested him to talk with Beam. So today, he asked Beam to take a stroll out in the garden to catch up with each other. They were walking on small pavement in the garden. Only two of them. There was unknown silence in between those two. Beam was nervous. He knew why they were here. He has to answer those questions, just like how his father has told him. No one can know the truth. No one can. He feared his father more than anyone in the world. If a word gate out, then it would be death for Beam. He didn't want to go through that pain ever again. Never.

"Coco"

"Yes phi" Beam said nervously

"I am sorry for leaving you there with that monster." Park said hugging Beam for a while and then release him as they walk side to side.

"It's okay phi. You don't know"

"But still I should ha-"

"It's really okay phi." after that they again fell into silence.

'How did he died?' Park asked as he stopped walking and looked at Beam. It was still so painful for him to know that Tharn died.

"A-accident."

"Car accident?"

"N-no."

"W-we were studying in my room. I was hungry so I asked him for food. He d-didn't came. I w-went downstairs, h-he w-was a-at b-bottom of stairs. I-in b-blood. H-he h-he. .."

Beam repeated the words that he told those police and doctors at that time. Unknowingly, the scene of his brother lying on the floor, covered with blood with wide opened eyes flash through his eyes. He shivered. He would never erase that image from his mind.

"Beam" Beam looked at Park. Park never called him by his name unless he was angry. Who was he going to fool? Park knew his brother for years, his brother was athlete. With a large and built body as strong as rock. And he has reflexes better than anyone else as he was basketball player. There is no way; his brother would die just because falling from stairs.