𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

𝟐𝟎

𝐀𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭📣: I'm bakk n im betta ik y'all come forgot abu me but imma finish the book anyways.

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okai now on to the long waited ass chapter .

𝐒𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚 𝐖𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐃𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐬 | 𝐒𝐚𝐦 𝐒𝐚𝐦
𝙷𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚡.

I just got out of my class for marketing shit is so tiring , but it's making my business boom. I could not be more happy about that.

Even though I look happy on the outside I really ain't on the inside I have trust issues and a fucked up mindset.

I feel ever emotion and ion vent to anybody forreal it be days ion even come outta my room, days where ion eat , days where i barely speak.

It was nights where the memory of me being rapped by my cousin replayed in my head.

I had mental pain because I killed my cuzin after what he did to me . It was my first body. Everytime I told somebody what happened nobody believed me.

After that happened nobody knew except my pops, destiny and my 2 cuzins back home. My pops was so pissed off at the fact that he wasn't there to protect me.

I tried telling my mama but she neva believed me she said I was a hoe. She hated me since I was born my daddy always took care of me.

I just wanna feel loved. Every since my dad died my ma haven't been a mom to me she always out neva at home, neva kept food in the house . When pops was alive she always blamed him fa shit he neva did. She always going out at night and coming back in the morning she ain't neva gave a fuck abu me or my pops.

I put me some music on before I do some stupid. Hooking my phone up I play my vibe playlist and my song came on.

I remember feeling like I wasn't good enough
Had me questioning myself
I wasn't sure enough
Had me looking in the mirror
Tryna analyze my figure
I ain't perfect
You want perfect
So that figures
You always put me in a bad place (Oh, oh)
Said we were moving at a fast pace
It was all my fault
I fell in love too hard

This song reminded me of my ex. I thought I was loved that shit wasn't real.

You every put a song on and you cry just cause you can relate? That's me. Another song was finna come on until it stop cause somebody text me.

Pookie💕🖤.

Bae.

This boy really growing on me. I'm scared of putting my heart out there , I'm not sure If I could take the hurt. you can take so much hurt but it's like recutting the same wound dat healed once u keep doin the same shit that hurt you.

I'm insecure about my feelings but I don't wanna be a bitch about it. But lemme text my baby back.

yea?

U good?

No not rlly.

What's wrong?

Nun.

Samaria you make no fucking sense you just said U not good. Stop fucking playin wimme bru.

There's nun wrong.

I'm coming ovea dere.

I ain't even text back. I just understand everything was simple.

I neva vent to anyone I just bottling up all my emotions and hope they don't surface. As I'm overthinking more about my depression and past I hear the door bell.

I walk outta my bedroom and see my mama at the dinner table looking at me.

"Who the fuck at my house this late gurl?".
Mugging me

"Just a friend of mine ma." I said going to open the door and seeing Kevontae there.

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*not proofread, ignore any mistakes *
y'all getting boring wit dis book ?
should i end it ??

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