On and Offline - 사랑해 [Part 2 of New Text Received]

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Alison's POV

When we were done holding our meeting I decided it was time to talk to Jisung. To be honest, I was absolutely scared. I slowly made my way to his seat and called his name with a shaky voice. He freezed. "Jisung, I- we need to talk...", I began hesitantly. "Do we?" His voice sounded exhausted and gloomy. I gulped. "Y-yes. I know what you saw but I want to explain..." "Outside!" He got up and walked away. I quickly followed him into the hall. He finally stopped when we were standing outside the building. "Can I...explain?", I tried to start the conversation once again. "What is there to explain? I think your action explained everything itself!" Jisung's breathing got shallow and he glared at me blankly. "Jisung, I know it looked mistakable but I swear I didn't kiss him back! Believe me! We were both drunk and suddenly we talked about the past and I asked him if he had ever loved me and-" "Wait, are you saying you two were in a relationship?!?", his voice rose out of sudden and I flinched. "Uh...yes. But that's all in the past! I promise! I don't love him anymore. I only love you! He was the one who kissed me and really, I pushed him away. I only care about you and you are the best thing life could've given me! I love you!" He remained silent and my eyes filled with tears. I hurt Jisung so much... I'm a fucking awful person. "Will you...not say it back?", I quietly asked him with an unstable voice. "Jisung...?" He turned away and I heard him sobbing. "I... don't know...". Slowly I touched his shoulder and wanted to comfort him but he kicked my hand away. "LEAVE ME ALONE!", he screamed and tears were running down his cheeks. He was trembling heavily just like the day before and I jumped back a little. "Jisung, please listen I-" "GO AWAY!" Fuck, what have I done! Once again I stood there not knowing what to do. I knew this was another panic attack but I was overwhelmed by his anger against me and I didn't know how to handle it. "Jisung, please stop yelling at me and talk to me! What do you want me to do?" "GET THE FUCK LOST!", he bellowed and slumped down completely worn out. "I thought you were the one...I thought I could trust you and that you would love me...". Another wave of tears overtook him. I deeply inhaled and bent down to him. "Jisung, I do love you. I love you more than anything. Please listen to me. I don't have any feelings for that guy. It's all in the past. He made a mistake. I made a mistake. Please...forgive me. Jisung, please. Can you forgive me? I don't want to lose you. Because you mean everything to me. It's my fault. I know that you're sensible and yet, I still agreed to have a drink with him but here I'm standing and I'm sincerely apologizing to you and I hope that this man who I love with all my heart with give me a second chance and I promise I will take it..." Jisung slowly raised his head. "D-do you mean it?", the huddled guy asked still trembling. I nodded with a serious face. Then I pulled him into a tight hug. "I would never betray you. I will never lie to you. Here with me, you are safe". With the last sentence his the tension left his body bit by bit and his breath was slowly returning to normal. His exhaustion that appeared as a repercussion of the panic attack was clearly visible but I felt finally warm inside again when his weak voice whispered the words "Thank you...".

Aria's POV

I walked through the halls of the hotel. Lucas must be here somewhere. After 20 minutes of searching I wanted to head back to the meeting room when someone came out of a staff room in front of me. "Lucas!" His eyes grew wide and he turned around. "Lucas, don't you dare to run off! There's something I need to talk to you about!" The called out guy turned back around slowly. "Yeah?" He tried to sound as innocent as possible. It was so obvious. "Who the heck did you think you are when you kissed Alison?! Excuse me? She's got a boyfriend?! And alcohol is no excuse, man!" "I know..." "If you think you can get her to love you again and break up with Jisung you're an idiot. Do you know how much she loves him? And do you know that you are the cause for both of them crying and fighting?! You're the worst!", I kept scolding him for what he had done. "I-I'm sorry..." "You should be! But I'm not the one you should tell that!" Lucas looked at his feet. "I fucked up, and yeah I know alcohol is no excuse but I'm still madly in love with her..." "But you have to understand that you can't get her back. If you really love her, prove it and let her be happy with Jisung. I count on you!" He nodded with a sigh. "I agree. It was a mistake. So... I'll better be off to apologise to her now?" "Yes, but better do it a little later. She's talking to Jisung right now...It would be quite... explosive if you would show up there now..." "I see".

Alison's POV

Aria and I were in our room quickly packing up our stuff. The concert gladly went very well and now everyone was back at the hotel to pack. Our flight would leave at 3am so we needed to head to the airport as soon as possible as the clock already showed past midnight. "You done?", I asked Aria a bit frantically and she nodded. Suddenly there was an envelope lying right in front of the door. "Huh? What's that?", I asked out loud and picked up the white paper.

Hi Alison,
This is Lucas...I know I fucked up. And I am so sorry. I know that nothing can excuse that I kissed you but I really didn't intend to hurt you or your boyfriend. It's true I am still in love with you but I realised that all I wanna do is make you happy. I really appreciate your relationship and again I am so sorry that I made this mistake. I hope you can accept my apology and I hope we can stay friends.
All the best for you, Aria, and the boys, and great success to your next concerts.

- Lucas