I had to take a deep breath, I remember the words wise women told me. "Don't read into something you know isn't going to work, but don't go down without a fight." You know whats crazy, I went to a fortune teller before this trip, and thats what she said to me. I should've known.
"The number of things you did for me." I sound like a fucking petty bitch. Someone tell me to shut up right now.
"It was all fake?" My vision getting blury, this. hurts.
It hurts. So bad.
"Ugh! I can't Matteo, here I thought I can put my walls down." For once I trusted someone after everything that happened, I trust someone. I don't do that ever.
But it seems like everytime I do that, it gets me 10 steps backwards. I just can't believe he made me feel this way knowing that when he all get back he is just going to leave. I swear if he pulls that bullshit where it's like it's not you it's be time beat. I'm going to lose it.
I walk to him and pointed to my chest "It hurts." I shook my head, "You know."
"But as soon as I think I can trust someone they just stab me in the back again and again and again." Starting to think I can never be happy.
I let the tears fall at this moment. I don't care any more.
"S-so" My voice cracking, "What Dante is doing this to Sara as we speak?"
He is just looking at his feet.
"I knew it." I am angry. "I just knew this was too good to be true."
"The number of times, I think I feel happy I'm not."
I put my hand on my head and wiped the tears off my face. "God this is just like deja vu all over again."
"My fucking Karma." I let my lip tremble.
I shouldn't jump to conclusions. "At least tell me why?" I look at him and cleared my vision, I don't want to be that type of person that just gets mad but this is how I am right now, but I need to know why.
"I get it that you're leaving but why?" I have to ask.
He looks down at me finally making eye contact.
"Be in the car in 5 or we will leave without you." That was all he said then he walked out.
I started to ball my eyes out. "What the fuck." I sat down and put my hands in my legs. This is what I get. I sucked in a breath.
Am I not good enough?
I guess I don't deserve happiness.
Then. I decided to be a BAD BITCH.
I walked to the SUV and looked out the window not looking at anyone, the whole ride was dead. No one spoke to anyone, you even heard the GPS.
I wasn't thinking about myself, I was thinking about Sara. Her and Dante had something deeper than me and Matteo had.
Her head rests on my shoulder and I wanted to look but I didn't.
DING
the saddest bitch: you okay?
you: I guess
the saddest bitch: don't let this affect you. okay?
you: ok
the saddest bitch: don't shut me out again okay?
you: yea
the saddest bitch: you know I love you right?
I let out a breathless laugh.
You: I love you too
I left Sara's chat and scrolled through my latest text messages. A message came through I taped on it.
God: I'm sorry Sandy. :(
You: It's fine.
God: I'll miss you.
I logged out of the chat and shut my phone off, My phone kept Vibrating.
God: Sandy?
God: You know you in front of me and I can see that you're ignoring me.
God: I didn't do anything...
God: I'm going to cry.
God: Answer?
God: Sandy?
God: Natalia?
Unknown: I'll miss you Sandy
I wiped the tear that threatens to fall, I put Sara's head on my lap and continued to look out the window.
At least I have Sara
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A/N
Hey Guys my back hurts still! I think I'm going to take a long ass break from this book. Or maybe not.
"Goodbye Jack"
xoxoxo Gossip Girl.
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