So this is about my parents
I've seen them both explode at each other since I can remember and I've developed some form of anxiety from it so now I'm fucked up
They only started getting couples therapy at the beginning of the pandemic and only went for a few weeks ever since they have argued less loud but that might have something to do with the fact that my mom found out that I get crazy bursts of anxiety from people yelling
I guess I'm somewhat happy cause I know that my younger brother won't have to deal with the trauma that I have but I'm sure he will have his own cause we just live in a loud household
Funny(not funny) story that I actually have not told you guys yet in February I had a full blown mental breakdown in front of my parents (note I had a anxiety attack a couple months before that my mom had just played of as me "just forcing myself to panic") it was weird I could hear and feel what was happening but I couldn't do anything I had just shut down
It sucks to because me and my mom were talking about the fact that i might get therapy which i jumped at the opportunity because I know that I need help and i would rather get that before it spirals again
But I'm actually pretty okay now and I think I might bring up therapy to mom again were leaving for vacation on Monday so I might ruin the entire trip
Oh and i also have to wear a bathing suit so my insecurities are going through the roof
Ok my rant is over if you read this entire thin wow and also thanks for caring about me!
BYEEEEEE LOVE YA'LL (my southern is showing :p)
