Hey! I hope you're doing alright. I just wanted to let you know that you mean a lot to me! 😊
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Maybe....maybe that sounded weird. It probably sounded weird. Real friends don't feel the need to constantly tell the other friend that they are important to them. They don't need that reassurance. I wish I hadn't sent that. They probably think I'm weird. I bet they think I'm clingy. Am I clingy? I'm probably clingy. If I'm too clingy will they leave me? That's probably a clingy thought. That's definitely a clingy thought. Does that make me toxic? I don't want to be toxic. What if...what if I'm a toxic friend. People don't usually notice if they are toxic. I never thought I was toxic so does that mean I probably am? What if they don't want to talk to me because I make them feel bad? Maybe I push them too hard. What if that text makes them feel like I'm pressuring them to say it back? I just wanted to remind them that I care. They are probably busy, it's rude for me to expect them to reply. Maybe I ask too much. I hope I didn't bother them. They probably wish they hadn't met me. I wouldn't want to meet me. Wow, that was really pessimistic, I shouldn't think like that. If I think like that they'll think I'm exhausting to be around. I don't want to exhaust them. I just won't tell them if I'm thinking like that. That will make it better. I don't want to burden them. But what if they think I don't trust them? That I'm scared to rely on them. They'll start questioning themselves wondering if they are a good friend. They are an amazing friend. I just don't want them to feel bad. They'll think we aren't close. If I don't tell them when I'm sad they will think I don't see them as a good friend. I shouldn't have sent that text. It looks like I need reassurance. I do need reassurance...I'm pathetic. Why can't I just not think about it? Why do I have to think about this so hard? I wish I could stop thinking. I wish I had thought more. If I had thought more I wouldn't have sent that. I don't want to lose them, they really do mean a lot to me. I'm a terrible friend. This is exhausting...
Hey! Sorry! I was busy. Awe!
You mean a lot to me too! ❤️
