favorite liar | jegulus

nineteen

quickly enough december rolled around and talk about break had already begun. everyone was chatting about the gifts they hoped to get, where theyd be going, their plans to travel and visit relatives

among the marauders there was talk about everyone spending break at james' place. sirius was a given since he had practically been adopted by the potters. peter and remus were on board but had yet to ask their parents

in years past having his three best friends by his side would have topped any christmas gift. yet this year he was left yearning for more. he wouldnt be satisfied until he could be sure regulus would join them and that he would be safely hidden away with james and co.

it was the only gift james truly wanted; a christmas with regulus black because not only was reg his boyfriend but he had become his best friend as well

on the first snow of the season james pulled sirius aside in the common room

"pads, a word please?" james whispered pulling sirius away from the crowd

"everything alright prongs?" sirius questioned his voice full of concern

james hushed him, "yea things are great. i just—i have a question.."

sirius folded his arms, "what is it?"

james sighed, "i know youre iffy when it comes to your brother and me but i dont want him in that house over break."

"i second that" he nodded

"i guess i just, i wanted your approval before i offered him a place at my house. i didnt know if it would cross any lines or bother you in anyway, so i thought id come to you first," james continued

his eyes lit up, "youd do that for him?"

"in a heartbeat," james stated

"if you can convince him, i have absolutely no issue with it at all. we both want the same thing, a happy and safe regulus," sirius replied with a bright smile

james pulled sirius into a tight hug, very appreciative of his approval and willingness to share him with his brother

james quickly fled to remus's side tapping him on the shoulder

"pst? moony?" he whispered

remus turned around, "yea? whats up?"

"can i see the map? i need to find reg," he explained

remus reached into his pocket and pulled out the worn parchment handing it to james

"thank you," james mouthed as he took off to the corridor

once he was alone he took out his hand and tapped the map saying 'i solemnly swear that i am up to no good'

he scanned the map for the name regulus black until he found him up at the astronomy tower. his heart skipped a beat, please dont make a mistake, please

james sprinted as fast as he could up to the tower

please be okay, regulus just please wait a little longer. im begging you

and when regulus came into his view he took a deep breath, reveled immensely at what he saw

regulus was sitting there looking up at the sky, his hands folded in his lap, and a child like wonder in his eyes

james realized instantly that reg was talking to sirius's star. so hes is bad? he asked himself. he was worried he had missed something, that he hadnt been there for reg like he should have

"you alright love?" james asked approaching him slowly

reg shrugged, "i just needed to see him. im worried james, im scared actually."

"about what?" james asked sitting down behind reg and pulling him close. reg let himself fall back into his arms but kept his eyes focused on the stars

"break," regulus stated lifelessly. "ive always managed to be on their good side but, and dont take this the wrong way, after you i dont think i can ever be that son again."

"im sorry," james breathed out

"no no, dont be. ive changed for the better. but they wont think that. im not sure i can go back to taking orders without question and hearing talk about blood purity or the dark lord." regulus disclosed as he held james's hand softly stroking his thumb back and forth

"then come to my house over christmas break," james stated, not intending to take no for an answer

"james you know i cant," reg said instantly with no hesitation

"they dont have to know. just come straight to my place," james pleaded

reg shook his head. "comon, we took sirius in with no trouble at all. youll be safe," he kept begging

"by the time you took sirius in they had lost all hope for him, but not me. and i know they wont give me up as easily," reg stated turning to face james

james tilted his head, "and whys that?"

"cause they need an heir and they need grandchildren to carry on the bloodline. im their last hope, they will do even more to control me than they did with sirius," reg explained. "if they loose me the bloodline will die and their only goal in life to continue it. they have no other purpose, no other ambition."

"is that what you want?" james asked

"whha?" regulus mumbled, "what?"

"is continuing the bloodline what you want?" james asked again

it took a moment for reg to responded. it was evident that no one ever asked him what he wanted before so he had never thought hard about his dreams and aspirations

"i guess i would like a family one day but i dont know that i would want them anywhere near my parents. and truthfully im not sure id even have kids with my blood," reg rambled

"maybe youre destined to restart the black bloodline. make it in your own image, you know?" james offered gently

reg chuckled, "its a nice thought but im— im not sure of much these days."

"i dont mean to disregard that comment, but i really want an answer about break," his voice timid

he sighed, "you know i want to come. you know i would never leave your side if possible. but i dont know how i would ever pull it off."

"you can hide under the cloak. she wont be able to find you. youll slip right past her at the station, she wont even know you were there," james offered having a revelation

"blimey james," reg gasped. "that just might work. love you're brilliant, truly brilliant!"

"is that a yes?" james beamed

"yes, yes, a million times yes!"

james leaned forward and kissed regulus deeply and passionately. his lips were the same soft escape that james had grown familiar too

once again he slipped into his own world while their lips were attached. a world with no war just love and happiness and the two of them together

he pulled away slowly and locked eyes with reg a cocky smirk growing on his face

"youre in deep black," james joked

"so are you, ya prat." regulus chuckled