We are Guilty ✔️

6. Unintentional

I observed him as he took the bottle from the desk and opened it, emptied it in his hands, and extended his hand towards me so I can have a look at those shiny little tablets of my doom.

"I suppose you opened a new bottle, as both of us are aware of the fact that one bottle contains ten pills, you are telling me you took only one, but there are six pills in my hand right now" He explained and I quickly counted the pills, there were six in his hand. Hell no! I could have died.

"You could have died" he shouted at me and I gripped the sheets and flinched as tears formed in my eyes, I refused to look at him out of guilt.

"Zel, I clearly informed you that you have to take these under extreme emergencies, only one and NOT four!!!" I heard him shuffle in his chair as he adjusted the clipboard in his hand. I shut my eyes when a tear rolled down my cheek.

"Zel, what happened" he stood up and put his hand on my back asked me the same question I was about to ask him. So there was silence for a minute before I had the courage to speak up.

"I can't remember what happened, really, but I can assure you it was just unintentional, I never planned to harm myself by over-dosing" I rubbed my eyes and he let out a sigh

"If you can focus on what happened, are you able to recall who brought you here? Or when did you take those extra amounts of pills" he asked and took my hand in his rubbed circles on my palms to calm me.

"I can't" I whimpered and more tears ran down my cheeks. He gripped my hand tightly and sat down.

"I am telling you I am nothing but a burden" Here comes the over-thinking mode and negative thoughts. I did really think I am just dead inside and causing trouble to my family.

"No, please we talked through this, don't even think about those thoughts, lock them out" he consoled me. In return, I nodded and looked at him. He hasn't changed a bit, still the same behavior and tone, I mean many doctors act in a kind way only to treat their patients, but Reign is different, he is the same without fake skin.

"We have to run a few tests, I will send in the nurse to take your blood" he let go of my hand and stood, I rubbed the sides of my temples in an attempt to remember any minor detail.

I heard the door open

"Wait, I remember" I shouted immediately regretting it because the next second I was coughing and put my hand on my throat and the other on the chest.

"Zel" He quickly turned around and picked up the glass by the table, handed it to me. "Be careful" he whispered and sat down again adjusted his coat.

"Sorry, but anyways I remember umm... blood on my bathroom floor I guess after that a loud banging on my door next thing is I remember is umm..." I told him these few minor details and he started to jot down some notes on his board.

"Next thing..." he cued me to continue

"I think I crawled out of the bathroom and opened the door to find mom, so mom brought me here maybe I collapsed in front of her after opening the door" I fiddled with my thumbs and shot him a quick glance.

"That's it, so far your memory is coming back" he smiled and put the board aside

"So I am hearing Stephie's voice" I confessed and told him my half-problem deliberately ignored the fact about the other two voices.

"No worries, I told you I am here for you, we will figure out a way to cope with that" just like our usual time he started to help me with his sweet words. That is why I like him.

"I will leave, we can talk tomorrow morning" he picked the clipboard and waited for me to ask him about what time it is?

"Wait, what do you mean by morning, I slept at three in the morning, I remember four o'clock displayed on my watch when I had rushed out to open the door for mom" I gave him a clueless look, he put his thumb under his chin, a gesture whether he should tell me the time or not

"Zel, right now the time is eight in the evening, your mom came home at four in the evening, she immediately dialed us when she saw you" As soon as the words left his mouth, my face went pale, with widened eyes as I gasped and covered up my mouth, that damn machine again picked my increasing heart-rate.

"Zel, no need to panic see you are alive and well, look you are awake" he scooted his chair closer to my bed

"So I was asleep for like more than twelve hours, Goddamit!" I exclaimed, today is Friday so my mom works part-time and she leaves at eight in the morning and comes back at four, that meant she must have assumed that I was already up and left for work without meeting me as for me I usually spend most of my afternoon with Sebastian till the time she comes back. Sebastian must be freaking out right now.

"Zel, I umm..." Oh, God! Even Reign was at a loss of words after this.

"I don't want to sleep, again, not for some time," I told him before he could complete what he was about to say or instruct. I am afraid to sleep again especially after this near-death experience.

"Zel, but you need to rest, you cannot stay awake," he tells me, in a way that is true but I don't want to sleep.

"Can you get me something to read, I promise I will sleep after reading a few chapters" I asked him with an innocent face, he sighed and stood up

"Fine but only if you will sleep after that" he stood by the door and I nodded back

"Deal" I gave him thumbs up and he left the room and returned back with two books in his hand.

"Here you go, your favorite" he handed me the book and took a seat next to me on the chair with the other book in his hand.

"Agatha Christie, seriously, I have completed her books" I sighed and put the book on my lap.

"What are you reading?" I asked him and snatched his book to have a look at the cover. I snorted and covered my mouth to suppress back a laugh.

"Harry Potter" I laughed out while embarrassment crawled upon his face as he tried to snatch back the book from my hand

"Give me that back" he cleared his throat and stood up, took the book from my hand. I kept my smile and observed him with interest as he fixed his eyes on the book.

I picked the once-read Agatha Christie book. Oh, this was the first murder mystery I read. I yawned while Reign gave me side glances, a smirk on his face. I pouted and tried to forget the main plot twist of the book so as to bring back the interest. Though I clearly remember that the spoiler is the name given at the very end of the last chapter.

"One more chapter, please" I begged as Reign told me to go to sleep after half an hour but I feel uncomfortable and afraid. He bugged me to sleep, I replied with the same answer every time.

"Zel, now I know you have already read this book so go to sleep" he kept pushing my buttons, so I slammed the book and glared at him.

"Fine, you won" I gave him the book, he stood up, ready to leave.

"Goodnight cuddles" I smirked at him and extended my arms ready to embrace him.

"Sure" he smiled and hugged me, don't judge me but he smells good.

"Night" he left with a smirk, switched off the lights, and closed the door behind me.

I laid down on my back, with a comfy bed under me, and tugged my hands inside the blankets. I was able to hear the normal beating of my heart through the monitor.

I hope...

No wait, it didn't turn out well when the last time I had hoped for something.

Goodnight to me...

A/N Get ready for a bucket load of tears ...

Zel, I love you... *sob *sob

And love you all...

Important note: The diagnosis and amount of pills mentioned here are all FICTIONAL and cooked up by me