ELEVEN . tsukishima kei [✓]

#172 | may 11th

dear kei,

a hundred seventy-two days in and still no response from you. im surprised ive made it this far because of how tired i am lately. things are okay for now but im sure it'll get more complicated later on in the year.

kageyama-kun came to visit me :) he said my skin
looks bad and i literally threw a pillow at his head. of course, it didn't go far so he didn't even have to dodge.

he brought me some adlers merch that i could keep in my room to decorate the depressing room. he was dressed so lightly that i was practically shivering looking at him but he said it was normal temperature for him. my skin is probably just thin so im easily cold :(

i made a small joke but it didn't seem to go well with kageyama-kun. he went silent and stopped listening before excusing himself out of the room for a minute. hinata-kun came in a moment later to tell me that kageyama-kun wasn't feeling well and he went home :/ i shouldn't have said it.

part of me hoped that you'd be there too. you three were like peas in a pod back in high school so i assumed you'd show up. but you didn't aaaaaaa. i should've expected it. my heart still dropped.

even if you didn't show up, i love you so much. i will never stop thinking of you.

are you okay with that?

if it isn't too much to ask, i want to talk to you in person. please come over and visit me for a bit. i have something important to tell you. you'll be shocked to hear it though heheh

you might not believe this but i love you, kei <3

sincerely,
l/n f/n :)