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Dear Diary,

10.13.20

It's now night time and i spent the whole day with Juyeon.

i was really really getting anxious why he compliments me every time and why he would pay for the foods.

i think I'm really falling fast.... i wish i am not mistaken, no- it's just compliments right?

did he know I'm dying soon?! it's because he's just too kind right? he just felt sorry for me..

I'm dumb, but i know that! but i don't know why I'm dumb when it comes to love. is it because i never felt it?

what is it like to be loved by a boy? do you feel butterflies flatter on your stomachs and all of your hearts beating fast? is it just like? do i really love him?

i do.

he's caring to elders and have lovely families and friends. they're all super kind especially his mother. i wanted to keep him and hide him away from the world. but I'm dying soon what's the point if I'll not be by his side, he'll find someone new probably. I'll be selfish  and hide him from Yoona-Yooa, Yooha.

but that feels wrong. i should not control his feelings to like me back, to love me back. it feels like those compliments were just because he's already use to say it to me.


but thank you tho, Juyeon. you taught me how to be a great person and a friend.

i will never know his perspective. on how he sees me.

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