Our Family

Chapter Three

Chapter 3: A Dream?

I can't move my body I'm just sitting in the grass and watching it

It is so weird for me, i don't know why.

It's not like before

I can't understand this feeling

I look up in the sky and watch the leaves falling down

It was so silent. The birds are singing and flying freely

I can't help my self but to look at Eren he lift his chin and closed his eyes while feeling the touch of the Air

His hair grew that fast huh?

I can see how tired he is, no i feel it...i can feel it

He became taller than me

His nose, his red lips, his cheeks...and his eyes

How are you those past few years Eren???

He suddenly opened his eyes and looked at me

He Change, i can tell it i can feel it just by looking in his eyes

It change

Before, his eyes was full of Care, motivations, compassion and the willingness to kill every titan to fight each of them to avenge his mother

But now, i don't know...i can't understand anymore i don't get it anymore

I looked down when i realized that i was staring at him for more than a minute now

I don't know what he was doing but i can feel and i can see in my peripheral vision that he is looking at me

"Ere------", i was about to call his name when

" Don't call my name. Mikasa", he said

I don't know why...or maybe he just hate me. Yea he do really hate me

I wanted to ask him, i wanted to touch him, i wanted to examine every inch of his body to see if he's hurt. But i can't do that

I started to feel something inside my chest again, it is so heavy it hurts it feels like it's tearing a part

I lifted up my hand and touched my chest hurriedly, for him not to notice it

I want to end this pain, should i cry now???

But i don't want him to see me crying ever again, i don't want anyone to see me crying again, i wanted to release the pain by just me. Without anyone seeing or noticing that i am crying

"Uhh ere-- i mean hey...I'm going inside now, please...take care always...", said i

I watched him turn his head in my direction, he isn't saying anything he just  gazed down and nod his head a little

I stood up carefully and walked far away from him but my head is just so stubborn
I can't do anything but to turn around and look at him

He's just looking down

I think, no. I should have ask him how'd he feel right now

I shouldn't have left there, i should have make him feel like he isn't alone, which is true Armin and I never gave up on him.

I won't, i don't know.

"What are you guys planning, why'd you agreed to go with them?", Eren said while talking to himself