I sucked all the air around me, trying to calm myself down and don't snap at him too soon, but I was already at my limit. Thus, I took some courage and declared:

"That comment. That comment out there was totally unnecessary."

"That's not up for you to tell," he stated and got back to his paperwork, lowering his gaze. "If you're done whining, you can leave. Erwin is about to-"

"Not even close," I spoke through my teeth, interrupting him. My fists tightened and my feet instinctively moved forward.

"Listen, my dear captain, let's get one thing straight. I'm not one of your fifteen-year-old cadets who you can boss around and insult as if it were nothing. I don't need to be taught a lesson, nor your ridiculous silent treatment. I'm already punishing myself for the both of us."

Levi slowly leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms, and squinting his eyes at me, as if he was carefully pondering my words or, more likely, plotting how to cut my throat. He set his jaw and creased his jacket as his fingers sank in the fabric. He was visibly trying to maintain his composure, right when I was about to lose mine.

"We both know why you've been acting like a dick recently, so why don't you just cut the crap?"

"I just act according to your behaviors, cadet. Nothing more, nothing less."

A laugh escaped me and I immediately tried to cover my mouth as I stepped back. "You really... You always got the right thing to say, captain, don't you? You think you know everything, you think you got me all figured out-"

"No, I don't. Otherwise, I wouldn't have been taken aback by seeing my bed empty the morning after."

I felt the blood boiling in my veins, the tears starting to pool in my eyes, the rage to wreak havoc inside my bowels

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I felt the blood boiling in my veins, the tears starting to pool in my eyes, the rage to wreak havoc inside my bowels. I instinctively rushed back at him and started yelling, banging both my fists on his desk.

"Do you think I did it just to hurt your stupid little ego, Levi? What kind of person do you take me for? Do you think I did it light-heartedly? Do you think that when I saw you sleeping in front of my fucking face I just told myself let's fucking leave? I don't regret a single second of what happened between us. Not even one. You know it. You felt it...So please stop it. Stop making me feel so miserable, I'm just trying to move on."

I sniffed and hung my head. In the meantime, the captain was still silently looking at me, motionless in his chair. That was probably the most embarrassing thing I've ever done in my life.

"Levi. There are at least a million reasons why it was the only right decision to make. A million. I just did both of us a favor. And you know I'm right."

My voice was starting to fail me, but I tried to keep talking. I lifted my head, my fists still pressed against his desk, my watery eyes fixed on his.

"Have you already forgotten? You were the one who told me you couldn't do this. You can't. We can't. What the fuck has changed, uh?"

He finally opened his mouth and told me "Everything."

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