Finding My Way

Temporary

"It's okay you just need to get away from him or stay with your mom." Raven suggested coming back to the living room.

All this thinking got me thinking about Chase. I really miss him like very much. Maybe I should text him, but I know he probably won't answer me.

Taking out my phone I shoot him a text just saying hey. I didn't want to start off with what happened because he might get mad again.

I waited all night to see if he would text me just so I could sneak and talk to him in person. I understand why he's mad shit I would be mad too,but I didn't mean it I swear I was never thinking about Kai when he was fucking me. I'm over that nigga so I don't even know how he came up in my mind and translate to my mouth.

I need to make this right with him. This is my second time fucking up something with him like damn what the fuck am I doing? Am I really a horrible friend?
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Next morning I took Clair to her moms and went to my dorm room. I requested to not have a roommate because I'm not going thru the same bullshit I did before summer break. So it's just me and my own stuff.

Not saying I didn't want to room with Clair I'd just rather be living alone. All day I just cleaned my room, washed clothes , and went food shopping. I wish I had my own place so I can cook because a home cooked meal sounds better than a TV dinner.

After finishing I laid in my bed thinking about everything from Chase, to what this year is gonna be like, to what plans I have after graduation. This adulting shit is so hard, I can't imagine what it's like having a kid and going to college.

I'm still pissed that Kai really fucked up relationship I wanted to have kids and get married, but he dead ass threw our relationship in the trash ever since I've been in college. Speaking of him I should call his dad to see how he's doing.

Taking out my phone I dial dads number. After a while of it ringing I hung up because he was obviously busy. So I just laid there swimming in my thoughts I ended up falling asleep soon after.
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It's our first day back at school and the campus grounds is crowded of people. I a lot of new faces here and I'm excited that I'll get to meet new friends.

I only had 2 classes today so I decided to get up early for a morning walk to get some fresh air. I got up putting on my workout clothes and headed out of my dorm. After a while of stretching I started my walk throughout campus. My class was 4 hours later so I'll be heading back to my bed after this.

As I walked around it seemed the same as usual but it's some fine ass females and guys on this campus I ain't never seen before. I started picking up the pace of my walking to jogging. I'm not the type to work out as much but when I do it's very relaxing.

Jogging in the parking lot to check on my car I saw Chase get out of a car with his homies and I just stared at him. I hope he's okay and will talk to me soon, than bam I ran into someone.

"Oh fuck I'm sorry let me watch where I'm going." I said to the guy.

"It's fine I should've been paying attention to....at you. Your gorgeous. What's your name?" The guy says to me holding out his hand.

"I'm Ro nice to meet you and you." I asked shaking his hand.

"I'm Jalen nice to meet you. I'm new here I just move from New Mexico."