After footasylum locked in (sharky form the beta squad)

14.

That bitch! Vee

"Vee!"i said out loud and I realised when I looked at aj he was confused

"Locked in Vee? Vee as in claimed you ruined her relationship Vee?"ah said I nodded

"I think because it's so fresh out relationship me and sharky it's hard because we in the public eye but it also mainly comes down to me not expressing my feelings enough I mean I said it in the locked in house and I'll say it again I'm scared to pour my heart out because of what previous happened in my life you know like I'm scared he just gonna shrug it off and act like he doesn't care" I explained

"No yeah definitely I think sharks is just insecure because your obviously a very attractive girl and he doesn't wanna loose you to someone else so the best thing you can do is reassure him even when you don't think it's needed or if you don't wanna just try just do it for his benefit because sharks isn't one to shrug things off if anything if you don't express your feelings to him he won't believe you"aj said and Aj advice was helpful because if I don't express them it just drive us further apart and that's the last thing I want

"Okay...imma talk to him"I said taking a deep breath in

"You got this bro"and his gave me a spud (you guys want me to say spud, spark or just fist pump?)  I went upstairs with aj but he went in his room and the door was locked so I knocked aj waited by his door until he opened it for me

"I said leave me alone"he said bluntly I looked at aj and then looked back at the door

"Even if it was someone that drive 30 minutes to talk?"I said sweetly as possible and I hear him get off his bed I nodded at aj and he nodded and he went in his room and sharky opened the door

We just looked at each other that gorgeous face off his look confused

"Can we talk then? Please"I asked and he agreed and let me in his room I put my bad down and got on his bed and I sat up but laid on one side and him on the other

"What's this about then if I get closer to your friends I'll forget about you"I asked he looked away

"Right so you came here to talk but you've already spoken to Aj"he said bluntly I sighed and laid down so my head was on the pillow and he was looking forward at the tv

"I never ever want you to think I'll forget you because if anyone I don't wanna forget you"I said it was difficult to express how I felt because I wanted to pour my heat out but I can't  do it I need to try

"You act like you don't care though you aired my message and about 20 minutes you rang me and was shouting at me"he said I got up and sat and faced him

"Yes because it's almost like you don't trust me with you friend like do you really think I'd Chet on you! The shit Vee said to you is bullshit okay and I know you called her and she made you feel a different way or look at me from a different point of view! That's something I'm not! Because I fucking love you with all my heart and I'm scared to express my feelings and you know that and when I don't look at anyone but you and think about anyone but you and you think the opposite of what I am it really fucking upsets me"I said and I started to almost cry but didn't

"Evie..."he sighed and pulled me over to him and I was practically sat on his lap

"All I wanted to do was be with you last night and not stay in a lonely apartment alone but that's what I ended up doing because you think I'm like cheating on you"I said and it fell quite and he looked away and I pressed my hand his cheek and my thumb brushed up and down his cheek

"Please tell me what you think baby"I whispered and he looked at me he looked like he was in pain to say it he took a deep breath

"Vee said that girl knows she's pretty so when she gets friendly with like your friends she said do me a favour and think it through on what she's doing like AJ and Evie become best friends then she was like bro and don't you think your Mandem will wanna move to her? And she just said to think about it"he said I moved my and off his face and sighed I was so nervous to talk about my feelings but like Aj said try and reassure him

"Right I could express everything right how about my insecurities like I think I'm ugly I hate my body in a bikini I really care about people opinions about me like if they think I should change I try and change"I explained

"But you shouldn't"he said

"Yeh I know but in the moment I don't think that and if any of you mates move to me I'll probably be clueless and I'm an overly nice person but if they was trying to move to me I'd be uncomfortable and probably only wanna be around you and wanna tell you or someone instantly"I explained and started playing with my hand

"And I get it if someone said that to me like what vee said to you I'd be feeling like you felt because if it was like you getting close to izz I wouldn't like it like I only have eyes for you and only you...I want you and last night I was scared that was the end of it all"I said he shook his head

"I want you all to myself"he said and I leaned in and kissed him and it became more and more passionate and he pinned me to the bed

Think eveyone knows where this is going...

"If you want me all to yourself show me"I said he smirked