i think wattpad sucks compared to my other methods of
talking
does this count as talking? should i write to a 'journal'?
dear diary? no thanks
im not a glitzy teen from an american feel good high school romcom
too specific? maybe.
things have been very hard. i cried a lot yesterday. i also danced in the kitchen while crying and making a cup of tea, which was a bit weird. i have work to do and i
sorry i cut off my thought
i don't know what i was going to say
maybe that i don't want to do the work, which is true. i love german but FUCK i don't want to sing for her. that's weird. i'm bad at singing.
i haven't washed in a while, which is pretty nasty. i think it's been 2 weeks since i last showered. oh my god that's disgusting. Help.
i miss mittens. she's at the vet and i thought she was gonna die . i was properly crying and that
i should do my art homework. i should do any homework. i should do a lot of things, but i don't think i will.
im very tired, but i'm not sure why. maybe i'm so tired of being tired i've done a 180 and made myself even more tired.
im saying tired too much.
maybe i'll just keep setting goals for myself i know i'll never reach, just to feel bad about it afterwards. maybe.
there's a lot of maybes, and i think i'll just ignore them. i think too much. maybe i dont think enough.
this is draining.
i want to be able to write good things. i want to be like oscar wilde or sylvia plath. or maybe ryan ross on livejournal in 2005, i've yet to decide.
for now i'll just chew my gum and pity myself. it's what i do best .
